I saw Michelle called but I missed her and now it is getting late. I'm with you for the fast until supper tomorrow. I was on the phone with my brother-in-law. He is having his third surgery in three months tomorrow - complications from Chrone's - keep him in your prayers. I'll be in touch - snack on those Psalms, girls!
Love,
Erin
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Day 3! Week 2!
Okay, after only 3 hours of sleep, I was up at 5, did my study, and God spoke to me! (hmmm...like I am surprised to realize that God WANTS to speak to me.) Anyway, here are my insights/thoughts from today's lesson:
Oh my goodness! This, "I'll obey the Lord tomorrow" thing, hit me between the eyes. I confess that I heard the Spirit prompting me with "moderation, Samantha" but I CHOSE not to listen and then gave an excuse like "I've already blown it today, etc." Hello, is this me, or Cain? All which leads me into Genesis 4:7. I understand the crouching like a lion, ready to pounce, but the words "at YOUR door" hit me. My door normally doesn't open by itself, I have to do it. I have to take action to this sin...I open the door, and then the lion pounces, knocks me down, and then I am angry at the lion? What about that doesn't make sense? Crouching is such an expressive verb! Hmmm...sin is always there waiting, there ready...doesn't need much of a pep talk to attack. It is on it's mark, get set, and ready-always ready to go. And once that lion pounces, we are down for the count...let's face it...how many of us can challenge a lion? So since we can't win the fight, we must make sure the fight never starts. Keep the doors shut!!! Let God fight our lions, and allow HIM to give us strength through His grace to overcome.
I love the song, "Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus." One of my favorite lines is "for more than conquerors we are." Wow! Romans 8:37 says "Yet in all these things (trouble, hardship, persecution, famine, nakedness, danger) we are more than conquerors through him who loved us." Okay, serious question here, is it wrong for me to put my eating sin in the parenthesis?
Numbers 32:23..."But if you fail to do this (_______________)you will be sinning against God and you may be sure that your sin will find you out."
I found myself aimlessly wandering the other day, and it scares me even more now that I have studied a little more about Cain. Cain became a restless wanderer, and he became fearful for his life. My notes questioned why he became fearful for his life...some think that later siblings would plot revenge for their lost brother, and some think that the further away the sin took him, he found unvalidated fears. Unvalidated fears, but real to him. Hmmm...unvalidated fears....sounds like someone I know. :(
So, I hope you guys took the time and did your lesson this morning. If not, get it done today and give your insights. God has wonderful things He wants us to share. Have a great day! I love you.
Sam'
Prayer Request for this week:
1. Spiritual: pray that I get courageous to talk to my dad about the Lord...to talk to all of my family about the Lord. Pray that I be sensitive to the Spirit's prompting and that I become courageous and not cowardly.
2. Personal: Pray that I learn to swim. This is very important to me. For those who have swam from childhood, this seems like such an easy request. I know it should be, but I have deep-rooted fears (invalid as they may be) that have me entangled. I know Hebrews 12:1 tells us that sin (whatever they may be...note plural sin) entangles us...we don't just have one sin that does this, but that sin entangles another sin, that entangles another, and so on. Pray that I learn to cut sinful strings so that my life starts to untangle. You may be wondering what that has to do with swimming, but believe me, it does. Just pray for me. :)
Oh my goodness! This, "I'll obey the Lord tomorrow" thing, hit me between the eyes. I confess that I heard the Spirit prompting me with "moderation, Samantha" but I CHOSE not to listen and then gave an excuse like "I've already blown it today, etc." Hello, is this me, or Cain? All which leads me into Genesis 4:7. I understand the crouching like a lion, ready to pounce, but the words "at YOUR door" hit me. My door normally doesn't open by itself, I have to do it. I have to take action to this sin...I open the door, and then the lion pounces, knocks me down, and then I am angry at the lion? What about that doesn't make sense? Crouching is such an expressive verb! Hmmm...sin is always there waiting, there ready...doesn't need much of a pep talk to attack. It is on it's mark, get set, and ready-always ready to go. And once that lion pounces, we are down for the count...let's face it...how many of us can challenge a lion? So since we can't win the fight, we must make sure the fight never starts. Keep the doors shut!!! Let God fight our lions, and allow HIM to give us strength through His grace to overcome.
I love the song, "Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus." One of my favorite lines is "for more than conquerors we are." Wow! Romans 8:37 says "Yet in all these things (trouble, hardship, persecution, famine, nakedness, danger) we are more than conquerors through him who loved us." Okay, serious question here, is it wrong for me to put my eating sin in the parenthesis?
Numbers 32:23..."But if you fail to do this (_______________)you will be sinning against God and you may be sure that your sin will find you out."
I found myself aimlessly wandering the other day, and it scares me even more now that I have studied a little more about Cain. Cain became a restless wanderer, and he became fearful for his life. My notes questioned why he became fearful for his life...some think that later siblings would plot revenge for their lost brother, and some think that the further away the sin took him, he found unvalidated fears. Unvalidated fears, but real to him. Hmmm...unvalidated fears....sounds like someone I know. :(
So, I hope you guys took the time and did your lesson this morning. If not, get it done today and give your insights. God has wonderful things He wants us to share. Have a great day! I love you.
Sam'
Prayer Request for this week:
1. Spiritual: pray that I get courageous to talk to my dad about the Lord...to talk to all of my family about the Lord. Pray that I be sensitive to the Spirit's prompting and that I become courageous and not cowardly.
2. Personal: Pray that I learn to swim. This is very important to me. For those who have swam from childhood, this seems like such an easy request. I know it should be, but I have deep-rooted fears (invalid as they may be) that have me entangled. I know Hebrews 12:1 tells us that sin (whatever they may be...note plural sin) entangles us...we don't just have one sin that does this, but that sin entangles another sin, that entangles another, and so on. Pray that I learn to cut sinful strings so that my life starts to untangle. You may be wondering what that has to do with swimming, but believe me, it does. Just pray for me. :)
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
How'd I know you'd cheer me up
Thank you
thank you
thank you
May I say again, thank you.
What would I do without you to brighten my day, Sam? Even if it is at your expense. Loud, obnoxious out-of-control belly laughs. Oh, I needed that.
Love you to pieces!!
That's so funny about the make-up thing. Whenever I pull my hair up Abby says, "Mom, I like your hair so much better when it is down." She said that today (of all days), so I snapped back at her, "Well, this is how I want it!" After that laugh, however, I think I can actually greet my children with a smile!
thank you
thank you
May I say again, thank you.
What would I do without you to brighten my day, Sam? Even if it is at your expense. Loud, obnoxious out-of-control belly laughs. Oh, I needed that.
Love you to pieces!!
That's so funny about the make-up thing. Whenever I pull my hair up Abby says, "Mom, I like your hair so much better when it is down." She said that today (of all days), so I snapped back at her, "Well, this is how I want it!" After that laugh, however, I think I can actually greet my children with a smile!
And then...
Okay, now a gallon of milk fell out of my refrigerator (yes, I had crammed it in there) and splattered all over the floor. Is it bed time yet?
Erin,...this is just for you. :)
Okay, I wasn't going to tell anyone about the day I had last week, but after reading about your day...I think you need a little humor, so here it goes. Know that I love you my friend, at my expense. :P
Last week (I now don't even remember what day it was) I didn't get up early to do the bible study because, 1) I didn't get to bed until late, 2) I wasn't feeling well with my cold, 3) I was anxious about my house being dirty and expecting my in-laws in any time, and 4) I am just lazy.
ANYWAY, Molly Shannon was playing the role of me that day. I am "loudly encouraging" Caleb to hurry and get dressed, eat, brush teeth, etc. I don't even think I combed his hair that day. (and you both know what all of those cow-licks do for my child's head) All to remember too late that today was class pictures!!! We are 10 mins late leaving, school has already started and the girls are arguing over which booster chair they will be sitting in! I hurriedly turn the key to hear nothing but, "click, click, click." Dead! One neighbor is gone to take the kids to school and won't be home for another hour and the other neighbor is working nights and not home yet! Paul is already at work so I call Niki who is also running late for her treatment. She comes and jumps me off and all I am thinking is that if I hooked this up wrong, it could blow my kids to pieces. yes, I'm a freak...I know. I called the school to hear them say, "well, we will try to reschedule Caleb's whole class to do their class photo last!" Oops, sorry. So, we are off and running, and then this "ding" rings which reminds me that I was too lazy to get gas the night before, and thought that the 17 miles I had left on my tank would be more than enough to get me to an Exxon Station. Well, for some reason...my tank is now saying I have 0 (zero) miles to go. So I pull into the nearest station (where I can't use my exxon card) and notice I only have $3.00 on me. Okay, that was going to have to do! All the time, my kids are screaming, "We're hungry!!!" because the girls didn't eat before leaving, mainly because I didn't make them breakfast! :( Bad mommy! So, I finally make it to Silsbee...12 miles away looking like a cool mom (no makeup and let's just say nicely, HELL) in a mini van that is almost out of gas again. Long story short, I am on my way home and a twinge hits my stomach. Oh, yeah...one of THOSE twinges! Those were the longest 12 miles of my life! I pull in our drive-way on two wheels...tilting the tank to help get me there, and park outside the garage since Ididn't have time to sit there and wait to pull in. I screamed, "every man for himself" and left my girls to fend for themselves, as I run and almost knock myself out as I hit my head on the garage door still going up. I hit the back door with my shorts already unbuttoned and unzipped! I whip around my bedroom corner kind of running, skipping, the kind of movements that accompanies the sound, "ooh, ooh, ooh!" only to hit my foot on the door, and I fell into the adjacent wall ...so hard that I dropped my keys! I slipped on my bathroom rug in front of my tub and fell yet again, only to hit the toilet, grabbing onto the bowl! I was bouncing around so much you would have thought that I was having seizures or something! Yes, I got there just in the nick of time, but had to check the back of my shorts to make sure! (This is so embarrassing...I still can't believe I'm confessing this) I am so sick by this time that I have stripped down to my bra only to use my shirt to wipe the cold sweat from my upper lip. All the while I hear, "ding-dong!" I just shook my head and screamed, "FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, PEOPLE!" I was resolved to just sit and finish my business meeting (that is for you Michelle) and then I suddenly remembered that I had left the front door unlocked earlier and didn't even know if my kids were in the house yet. So of course, I do damage control just so I can make sure my kids (if in the house) weren't opening our front door to some weirdo. Come to find out, it was my nephew here to put up the pool...unannounced ...with all of the sand...that needed to be swept 3 different times out of my house before Jan and Nelson showed up! After locating the children and getting Davy started in the backyard, I went back to the bathroom, but this time to just sit and cry. I actually screamed, "Okay God, what are you trying to tell me!" Bailey interrupts, only to inform me that she smells something stinky, and Keaton comes in to tell me that she loves me...but only when I wear make-up!!!!
Davy comes back in screaming, "Aunt Sam', your doors on the van are opened." Must have happened when I dropped the keys. Pretty hard hit!
What a day! A day of frustration! A day of true laughter (now).
So there it is...I'm waiting for Saturday Night Live to contact me for the details. Erin, I hope it was worth a laugh for you. See, your day could have been worse! I love you friends!
Molly
Last week (I now don't even remember what day it was) I didn't get up early to do the bible study because, 1) I didn't get to bed until late, 2) I wasn't feeling well with my cold, 3) I was anxious about my house being dirty and expecting my in-laws in any time, and 4) I am just lazy.
ANYWAY, Molly Shannon was playing the role of me that day. I am "loudly encouraging" Caleb to hurry and get dressed, eat, brush teeth, etc. I don't even think I combed his hair that day. (and you both know what all of those cow-licks do for my child's head) All to remember too late that today was class pictures!!! We are 10 mins late leaving, school has already started and the girls are arguing over which booster chair they will be sitting in! I hurriedly turn the key to hear nothing but, "click, click, click." Dead! One neighbor is gone to take the kids to school and won't be home for another hour and the other neighbor is working nights and not home yet! Paul is already at work so I call Niki who is also running late for her treatment. She comes and jumps me off and all I am thinking is that if I hooked this up wrong, it could blow my kids to pieces. yes, I'm a freak...I know. I called the school to hear them say, "well, we will try to reschedule Caleb's whole class to do their class photo last!" Oops, sorry. So, we are off and running, and then this "ding" rings which reminds me that I was too lazy to get gas the night before, and thought that the 17 miles I had left on my tank would be more than enough to get me to an Exxon Station. Well, for some reason...my tank is now saying I have 0 (zero) miles to go. So I pull into the nearest station (where I can't use my exxon card) and notice I only have $3.00 on me. Okay, that was going to have to do! All the time, my kids are screaming, "We're hungry!!!" because the girls didn't eat before leaving, mainly because I didn't make them breakfast! :( Bad mommy! So, I finally make it to Silsbee...12 miles away looking like a cool mom (no makeup and let's just say nicely, HELL) in a mini van that is almost out of gas again. Long story short, I am on my way home and a twinge hits my stomach. Oh, yeah...one of THOSE twinges! Those were the longest 12 miles of my life! I pull in our drive-way on two wheels...tilting the tank to help get me there, and park outside the garage since Ididn't have time to sit there and wait to pull in. I screamed, "every man for himself" and left my girls to fend for themselves, as I run and almost knock myself out as I hit my head on the garage door still going up. I hit the back door with my shorts already unbuttoned and unzipped! I whip around my bedroom corner kind of running, skipping, the kind of movements that accompanies the sound, "ooh, ooh, ooh!" only to hit my foot on the door, and I fell into the adjacent wall ...so hard that I dropped my keys! I slipped on my bathroom rug in front of my tub and fell yet again, only to hit the toilet, grabbing onto the bowl! I was bouncing around so much you would have thought that I was having seizures or something! Yes, I got there just in the nick of time, but had to check the back of my shorts to make sure! (This is so embarrassing...I still can't believe I'm confessing this) I am so sick by this time that I have stripped down to my bra only to use my shirt to wipe the cold sweat from my upper lip. All the while I hear, "ding-dong!" I just shook my head and screamed, "FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, PEOPLE!" I was resolved to just sit and finish my business meeting (that is for you Michelle) and then I suddenly remembered that I had left the front door unlocked earlier and didn't even know if my kids were in the house yet. So of course, I do damage control just so I can make sure my kids (if in the house) weren't opening our front door to some weirdo. Come to find out, it was my nephew here to put up the pool...unannounced ...with all of the sand...that needed to be swept 3 different times out of my house before Jan and Nelson showed up! After locating the children and getting Davy started in the backyard, I went back to the bathroom, but this time to just sit and cry. I actually screamed, "Okay God, what are you trying to tell me!" Bailey interrupts, only to inform me that she smells something stinky, and Keaton comes in to tell me that she loves me...but only when I wear make-up!!!!
Davy comes back in screaming, "Aunt Sam', your doors on the van are opened." Must have happened when I dropped the keys. Pretty hard hit!
What a day! A day of frustration! A day of true laughter (now).
So there it is...I'm waiting for Saturday Night Live to contact me for the details. Erin, I hope it was worth a laugh for you. See, your day could have been worse! I love you friends!
Molly
Mama said there'd be days like this...
The question is, what do I do when they come?
My day:
Woke up to do my study but was interrupted by a crying Makenna at 6:10 a.m. I make a Dr. appointment for Makenna - fussy little thing, probably her ear.
Chris woke up remembering he had a follow up doctor appointment. Chris calls me after his appointment to inform me his HDLs and LDLs are reverse of how they should be and his overall cholesterol in high and the doctor gave him meds. So I stew all morning about this and how I have no power to get him to exercise like he should and his nonchalant attitude about his health just really makes me angry.
I got Makenna to the doctor. Right ear infection - knew it.
I go to pick up Mak's prescription on the way to get Abby to dance lesson. The pharmacy is way long, so we are running late for dance. Oh well. We finally get moving and I get behind Grandpa. I don't want to be rude, but... we gotta go, so I use a middle turn lane to pass him in an ever so friendly way. He honks at me anyway. I pray he doesn't go to Bethel. With the White Sox sticker and the skydiving sticker on my rear window, I could stand out in a crowd of vans.
I head down 61st (near your old subdivision, Michelle) and I see a sign "Road Closed 500 feet ahead Local Traffic Only". Well, I keep driving. I'm thinking, "Is Colorado st (where I need to go) part of this or not? I get to the road closed sign and the two vehicles ahead of me weave around the sign. There are cops behind the sign. Colorado is in the midst of all of this. There are several cars stopped behind to Road Closed sign. So, innocent old me follows the cars ahead of me around the sign and rolls down my window. "Surely a friendly police officer will help me figure out where to go," I think. I start trying to ask and the cops pull me over to the side of the road. They inform me the road is closed. I tell them I understand that, I was trying to get to Colorado and I wasn't sure if that was part of the local traffic. To make an increasingly long story short, I received a ticket for "disregarding a road closed sign". Of course, they have no idea how much that is until next week and I can contest it in three weeks if I want. Arghhhh!!! So much for the help of friendly police officers. Once I realized I was being written a citation I also realized that all these other cars were sitting behind the sign were receiving citations too. It was a total trap. Needless to say, Abby missed half of her dance class.
So, what's a girl to do on a day like this? I tell you, I could really go for some chocolate - yeah I know, that'll help my cholesterol, right? Instead I read about five Psalms. That did help me get perspective. God is in control. Today, I guess he is in control of chaos. I cannot be in control of everything. I am not. Days like these are a good test for me in running to God, not food, for comfort. Not that I am asking for more tests...
My day:
Woke up to do my study but was interrupted by a crying Makenna at 6:10 a.m. I make a Dr. appointment for Makenna - fussy little thing, probably her ear.
Chris woke up remembering he had a follow up doctor appointment. Chris calls me after his appointment to inform me his HDLs and LDLs are reverse of how they should be and his overall cholesterol in high and the doctor gave him meds. So I stew all morning about this and how I have no power to get him to exercise like he should and his nonchalant attitude about his health just really makes me angry.
I got Makenna to the doctor. Right ear infection - knew it.
I go to pick up Mak's prescription on the way to get Abby to dance lesson. The pharmacy is way long, so we are running late for dance. Oh well. We finally get moving and I get behind Grandpa. I don't want to be rude, but... we gotta go, so I use a middle turn lane to pass him in an ever so friendly way. He honks at me anyway. I pray he doesn't go to Bethel. With the White Sox sticker and the skydiving sticker on my rear window, I could stand out in a crowd of vans.
I head down 61st (near your old subdivision, Michelle) and I see a sign "Road Closed 500 feet ahead Local Traffic Only". Well, I keep driving. I'm thinking, "Is Colorado st (where I need to go) part of this or not? I get to the road closed sign and the two vehicles ahead of me weave around the sign. There are cops behind the sign. Colorado is in the midst of all of this. There are several cars stopped behind to Road Closed sign. So, innocent old me follows the cars ahead of me around the sign and rolls down my window. "Surely a friendly police officer will help me figure out where to go," I think. I start trying to ask and the cops pull me over to the side of the road. They inform me the road is closed. I tell them I understand that, I was trying to get to Colorado and I wasn't sure if that was part of the local traffic. To make an increasingly long story short, I received a ticket for "disregarding a road closed sign". Of course, they have no idea how much that is until next week and I can contest it in three weeks if I want. Arghhhh!!! So much for the help of friendly police officers. Once I realized I was being written a citation I also realized that all these other cars were sitting behind the sign were receiving citations too. It was a total trap. Needless to say, Abby missed half of her dance class.
So, what's a girl to do on a day like this? I tell you, I could really go for some chocolate - yeah I know, that'll help my cholesterol, right? Instead I read about five Psalms. That did help me get perspective. God is in control. Today, I guess he is in control of chaos. I cannot be in control of everything. I am not. Days like these are a good test for me in running to God, not food, for comfort. Not that I am asking for more tests...
Monday, April 28, 2008
His Word...alive for all of us!
Erin, isn't it strange that I got something completely different out of today's lesson. Instead of focusing in on idolatry, ..."which we have heard and seen" seemed to almost be highlighted in my bible. Hmmm...think God wants to get something across to me? He has given me ears to hear Him, and a heart to KNOW it is Him. Why do I still dismiss that voice. "Oh wretched man am I!"
My confession to you guys is that today has been so hard. Humiliating hard! I had Niki's boys and I just found myself wondering aimlessly around like almost in a trance. Once I realized what I was doing in the kitchen, it actually scared me! Isn't that what Satan wants us to do...just to wonder around with no purpose, thought, or good deed? And what is even sadder is that I have a house-load full of laundry to do. Believe me...I should have been cleaning instead of hovering! I find Mondays to be difficult just because I am keeping an eye on the kids(that the little ones wouldn't pick up and try to digest some ungodly thing they found on the floor...all from my poor habits of cleaning) and so it seems like I am doing snack time, wipe the floor because someone spilled something, clean up kids, then make lunch, wipe the floor, clean up kids, etc. Even changing poopy diapers lead me to the kitchen. So, I am going to need extra encouragement on Mondays!
On a good note, I read some good info in a magazine and I will try to post all of that tonight. If you guys have any great pool exercises I can do, please forward them to me. I think I am going to try to do most of my exercises in the pool, and then some cycling in the morning. I love you guys and will try harder!
I sent in an essay application and got accepted into the Institute of Children's Literature. I don't have the money for the courses, but it is nice to know that I got accepted and that maybe I do have potential to be a writer one day. Who knows...maybe a funny, mommy book about the 3 of us. I wish you guys were here to see "Mama Baby" with me. Niki saw it and is going to go back with me...said she hadn't laughed that hard in a long time!
Okay, did I get in all of the nonsense, non-biblical side of this blog? Can you tell I've been with 5 kids all 5 and under all day? :)
Love you,
Sam'
???What we have seen and heard...kind of like God is saying, "Sam'...I've told you this before, I've told you this before, you know better, because you have seen better...you have seen what obedience to me does. Why aren't you listening now?" OUCH
My confession to you guys is that today has been so hard. Humiliating hard! I had Niki's boys and I just found myself wondering aimlessly around like almost in a trance. Once I realized what I was doing in the kitchen, it actually scared me! Isn't that what Satan wants us to do...just to wonder around with no purpose, thought, or good deed? And what is even sadder is that I have a house-load full of laundry to do. Believe me...I should have been cleaning instead of hovering! I find Mondays to be difficult just because I am keeping an eye on the kids(that the little ones wouldn't pick up and try to digest some ungodly thing they found on the floor...all from my poor habits of cleaning) and so it seems like I am doing snack time, wipe the floor because someone spilled something, clean up kids, then make lunch, wipe the floor, clean up kids, etc. Even changing poopy diapers lead me to the kitchen. So, I am going to need extra encouragement on Mondays!
On a good note, I read some good info in a magazine and I will try to post all of that tonight. If you guys have any great pool exercises I can do, please forward them to me. I think I am going to try to do most of my exercises in the pool, and then some cycling in the morning. I love you guys and will try harder!
I sent in an essay application and got accepted into the Institute of Children's Literature. I don't have the money for the courses, but it is nice to know that I got accepted and that maybe I do have potential to be a writer one day. Who knows...maybe a funny, mommy book about the 3 of us. I wish you guys were here to see "Mama Baby" with me. Niki saw it and is going to go back with me...said she hadn't laughed that hard in a long time!
Okay, did I get in all of the nonsense, non-biblical side of this blog? Can you tell I've been with 5 kids all 5 and under all day? :)
Love you,
Sam'
???What we have seen and heard...kind of like God is saying, "Sam'...I've told you this before, I've told you this before, you know better, because you have seen better...you have seen what obedience to me does. Why aren't you listening now?" OUCH
The last verse of the book
Did you ladies do your Week 2 Day 1 study this morning? I was so struck reading through 1 John on the contrasting view of living for Christ vs. living in sin. The book ends so abrubtly with, "Dear children, keep yourselves from idols." That sums it up, doesn't it? Bottom line, food has become an idol for me. Just as much as the golden calf for the Israelites or pornography for a struggling guy. God doesn't see my idol as any better or worse than any other idol. He detests it because it is taking his rightful place! I have laughed off my struggle - we all have at times. Ha ha, how funny - I downed a whole bag of Oreos! It really is not funny and it really does hurt God.
Honestly, I had no idea I would get so much out of this study, but it really has been eye-opening for me. Thanks for hanging in there with me girls and keep it up!
Sam, what you wrote is so powerful. As difficult as it can be to have such a sensitive spirit, it is and you are a gift from God! Good for you to get rid of the book. I've seen it before and thought it looked interesting, so thanks for the heads up.
Honestly, I had no idea I would get so much out of this study, but it really has been eye-opening for me. Thanks for hanging in there with me girls and keep it up!
Sam, what you wrote is so powerful. As difficult as it can be to have such a sensitive spirit, it is and you are a gift from God! Good for you to get rid of the book. I've seen it before and thought it looked interesting, so thanks for the heads up.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
He brings the provision
"He dines with you because you have invited Him into your heart, and you dine with Him because He brings the provision."---Spurgeon
Powerful.
I was up before 5 this morning...nothing to do today, just rest and enjoy our Saturday. But Satan didn't want me to do that either, and so I woke from a horrifying dream that drove me to grab my bible and my study. I had to play catch up with the study, and so I will read everything again tonight just so I can soak it in. My intense dream had caused me to have a GIANT headache this morning, and so now 4 hours later, I am still trying to get rid of it. Bottom line...in trying to "fix" my problem of overeating, etc., I borrowed a book from a friend...called You: on a diet. Overall, not a bad book...just a lot of talk about yoga, etc. I just flipped through pages and didn't even read it, but had laid it on my bedroom dresser. You both know how sensitive my spirit is to stuff like that, and sure enough, I have been having weird dreams(even weird for me!) with this same theme for 3 days now. This morning was so intense that I was almost vomiting. Come to find out, Paul had a similar dream. Funny thing is that as soon as I opened my eyes this morning, the book immediately came to mind. To say the least, it is no longer in my house and will be given back to the friend.
Now I know you two have never had any experience with this kind of stuff, and I'm thankful for that. Some of us are more sensitive to this than others, and I just want you guys to be aware of anything lurking around that could possibly sabbotage your bible study. It took me at least an hour to read Psalms with a clear mind...and not rehashing the images of the dream. God provided me with some quality quiet time and allowed to clear my head so I wouldn't be fearful all day. I've ran across some good tidbits this past week, one of which is "Fear is not a fruit of the Holy Spirit" (I'll keep telling myself that as I learn to swim.)
And I wonder why scripture tells us to "Taste & See." Why not learn and know, or read and understand, or experience and rejoice? Why taste? Could it be that we have to digest things that come through our mouth. Why not "Eat and See?" No, taste...take it in, savor the flavor (Yo-yo-man!), and chew on it a while. You know, like when we taste something for the first time...we are either eager or apprehensive, but we expect something...I think I am eager and apprehensive for this study. And why "See"? Why not smell, touch, etc. Could it be that we often think of concrete confirmation...have to see it to believe type of thing? Just wondering...I'm babbling now, so I guess I better go. Let me see if I can get still and get rid of this headache.
I love you guys...interested in what your thinking.
Sam'
Powerful.
I was up before 5 this morning...nothing to do today, just rest and enjoy our Saturday. But Satan didn't want me to do that either, and so I woke from a horrifying dream that drove me to grab my bible and my study. I had to play catch up with the study, and so I will read everything again tonight just so I can soak it in. My intense dream had caused me to have a GIANT headache this morning, and so now 4 hours later, I am still trying to get rid of it. Bottom line...in trying to "fix" my problem of overeating, etc., I borrowed a book from a friend...called You: on a diet. Overall, not a bad book...just a lot of talk about yoga, etc. I just flipped through pages and didn't even read it, but had laid it on my bedroom dresser. You both know how sensitive my spirit is to stuff like that, and sure enough, I have been having weird dreams(even weird for me!) with this same theme for 3 days now. This morning was so intense that I was almost vomiting. Come to find out, Paul had a similar dream. Funny thing is that as soon as I opened my eyes this morning, the book immediately came to mind. To say the least, it is no longer in my house and will be given back to the friend.
Now I know you two have never had any experience with this kind of stuff, and I'm thankful for that. Some of us are more sensitive to this than others, and I just want you guys to be aware of anything lurking around that could possibly sabbotage your bible study. It took me at least an hour to read Psalms with a clear mind...and not rehashing the images of the dream. God provided me with some quality quiet time and allowed to clear my head so I wouldn't be fearful all day. I've ran across some good tidbits this past week, one of which is "Fear is not a fruit of the Holy Spirit" (I'll keep telling myself that as I learn to swim.)
And I wonder why scripture tells us to "Taste & See." Why not learn and know, or read and understand, or experience and rejoice? Why taste? Could it be that we have to digest things that come through our mouth. Why not "Eat and See?" No, taste...take it in, savor the flavor (Yo-yo-man!), and chew on it a while. You know, like when we taste something for the first time...we are either eager or apprehensive, but we expect something...I think I am eager and apprehensive for this study. And why "See"? Why not smell, touch, etc. Could it be that we often think of concrete confirmation...have to see it to believe type of thing? Just wondering...I'm babbling now, so I guess I better go. Let me see if I can get still and get rid of this headache.
I love you guys...interested in what your thinking.
Sam'
Friday, April 25, 2008
"Swim, Mama, Swim!!!"
Woowoo! We got in the pool this afternoon! Stuffy and coughing, you betcha I got in too! Keaton fell asleep at dinner, and they are now all watching a movie so I thought I would catch up on this.
I am feeling better...just stuffy and tired. Hey, what's new? :) My results from my test came back ok. My cholesterol is a little ellivated, but he said that if I lost about 15 pounds that should go away. We are trying to wean me off of the blood pressure meds as I am trying to shed some quick pounds before I go back for the follow-up in 3 weeks. He was very encouraging with everything...even the EKG...
It shows that I have had a slight heart attack. Now, before you go gettin' all freaky on me...he said the computer read shows it, but he doesn't see it with the naked eye. It is hard for me to explain, but I trust him. He said sometime they are too sensitive and classify something as an attack when actually it wasn't. Now, that I am reading what I wrote, it really doesn't make any sense...but he showed me what the computer thought it was, and we couldn't see "that" at any particular point. Confused now? Don't worry, I am fine!!! Praise God. Normal, not so sure, but fine I am. :)
Erin, I agree that it is a good idea for all of us to stay on the same day, etc. I will be ready to start the new week on Monday. That will give me enough time to catch up and get revved up for it. Did we decide our fast day would be on Thursday or Wednesday? Just let me know. I'm excited that you guys are excited about this. I'm sorry I wasn't at my best to really do it with you guys this week. Next week we will be on the same page.
Okay, I now need to go play with my babies. I'll be in touch.
Sam'
I am feeling better...just stuffy and tired. Hey, what's new? :) My results from my test came back ok. My cholesterol is a little ellivated, but he said that if I lost about 15 pounds that should go away. We are trying to wean me off of the blood pressure meds as I am trying to shed some quick pounds before I go back for the follow-up in 3 weeks. He was very encouraging with everything...even the EKG...
It shows that I have had a slight heart attack. Now, before you go gettin' all freaky on me...he said the computer read shows it, but he doesn't see it with the naked eye. It is hard for me to explain, but I trust him. He said sometime they are too sensitive and classify something as an attack when actually it wasn't. Now, that I am reading what I wrote, it really doesn't make any sense...but he showed me what the computer thought it was, and we couldn't see "that" at any particular point. Confused now? Don't worry, I am fine!!! Praise God. Normal, not so sure, but fine I am. :)
Erin, I agree that it is a good idea for all of us to stay on the same day, etc. I will be ready to start the new week on Monday. That will give me enough time to catch up and get revved up for it. Did we decide our fast day would be on Thursday or Wednesday? Just let me know. I'm excited that you guys are excited about this. I'm sorry I wasn't at my best to really do it with you guys this week. Next week we will be on the same page.
Okay, I now need to go play with my babies. I'll be in touch.
Sam'
How are you feeling?
Sorry you're sick, Sam. Any better today?
I want to stay on the same week if we can, so if you get better and get through week one then we can begin week 2 together. Does that sound okay, Michelle? We can "Psalm snack" for a couple days in the interim.
When you are feeling better, Sam, and ready to give a fast a try, I'm on board with you. Honestly, the woozy feeling might have been from not eating. I know I had a few moments like that, but from what I understand our bodies adjust after fasting a few times. Of course, I totally understand that you are sick. Don't be discouraged! I know you will be ready to get back to it once you are better!
It was definitely a test in perseverance for me, but I'm thankful I did it and worked at depending on the Lord during that time. I also had fun making a really good supper and smelling things. My sense of smell seemed heightened during the day... donuts at the MOPS steering meeting, poopy diapers, vinegar (from washing Abby's sassy mouth out with it), burnt oil (but supper did turn out good!), the sauce I made for the pork chops.
Anyway, ladies, I'm going to refrain from beginning week 2 until I hear from you. Make it a great and moderate day!
Love,
Erin
I want to stay on the same week if we can, so if you get better and get through week one then we can begin week 2 together. Does that sound okay, Michelle? We can "Psalm snack" for a couple days in the interim.
When you are feeling better, Sam, and ready to give a fast a try, I'm on board with you. Honestly, the woozy feeling might have been from not eating. I know I had a few moments like that, but from what I understand our bodies adjust after fasting a few times. Of course, I totally understand that you are sick. Don't be discouraged! I know you will be ready to get back to it once you are better!
It was definitely a test in perseverance for me, but I'm thankful I did it and worked at depending on the Lord during that time. I also had fun making a really good supper and smelling things. My sense of smell seemed heightened during the day... donuts at the MOPS steering meeting, poopy diapers, vinegar (from washing Abby's sassy mouth out with it), burnt oil (but supper did turn out good!), the sauce I made for the pork chops.
Anyway, ladies, I'm going to refrain from beginning week 2 until I hear from you. Make it a great and moderate day!
Love,
Erin
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Just checkin' in
Erin, sounds like you are doing well! Keep it up. Me, I didn't get my day started right, and ate lunch after my doctor's appt. While I was there, I was woozie...could have been from all of the snot in my head due to my sinus infection, but who knows. I am putting the kids down and going to take a nap...a 3 day one! :) Seriously, I feel as if I could. Unfortunately, I feel so bad that I haven't even gotten into the study for the last couple of days. All I want to do is sleep....and have something cold in my mouth. Neither of those involve the Lord. I will do better! I'll try to blog tonight...for now, nighty-night!
S
S
Made it through lunch...
Okay, girls. Praise the Lord. Those Psalm snacks really are something. I was starving and I feasted on his word.
The hardest part of the day for me was making lunch for the kids because my stomach was growling and it was difficult to not "taste". I didn't though. Thank you Lord.
I pray that I will continue to focus on Him today, especially when I feel a hunger pain.
The hardest part of the day for me was making lunch for the kids because my stomach was growling and it was difficult to not "taste". I didn't though. Thank you Lord.
I pray that I will continue to focus on Him today, especially when I feel a hunger pain.
Sorry
Hey guys. I'm sorry about last night...I'm not feeling well and was in bed by 8:30ish. (just a little spring cold, but still enough to make you feel crappy.) I'm going to the doctor today, and so I am sure he will fix me right up if he thinks it is more than a cold. Anyway, I woke up late this morning, and I am late taking Caleb to school...he slept late too and is now getting dressed. Of course that leads to not having done my day 4 yet. I have day 5 for tomorrow. Erin, I do plan on fasting today and Satan is already at work...my stomach is starting to notice. I don't have much of a voice, but if the attack gets really bad, schreachy here will give you a call. Okay, I need to go put a sleeping Bailey in the van and off we go. Have a great day!!!!
S
S
Some things are okay to be immoderate about!
As a woman who has been extreme from time to time (ahem!), I like to think about things that are okay to have or do in excess. I don't have to "control myself" in those areas. I can even pray and ask God for even more! That's why I loved Day 5 and how she wrote, "Become immoderate in our love for God so we can become moderate in our love for his gifts." There is no limit, no excess, on how much we can love God. I also like thinking about this with regard to the fruit of the spirit - the Bible says there is no law limiting how much fruit we can produce. We can be big juicy fruit trees of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness and (ahem, again) self-control. I can practice those things as much as I want and no one will be disappointed.
To that end, I pray for abundant self-control as I continue to fast until dinner. I pray that I will feast on the Psalms today and learn to be filled up by his Word.
Missed you last night Sam. Hope all is well. Are you fasting today? Call me throughout the day if you are needing a little support. I'm going to need it I know.
I apologize if I'm acting like a baby about fasting. I'm sure once I do it, I will see that I lived through it. Never succeeding at it, it just seems slightly daunting. I might post a couple more times as I get through this first day of fasting.
Love,
Erin
P.S. I figure as long as we all have finished through the first week by tonight, that will put us on the start of the next week by Friday. I like that there are 5 days per week so we can "catch up" if we need to.
To that end, I pray for abundant self-control as I continue to fast until dinner. I pray that I will feast on the Psalms today and learn to be filled up by his Word.
Missed you last night Sam. Hope all is well. Are you fasting today? Call me throughout the day if you are needing a little support. I'm going to need it I know.
I apologize if I'm acting like a baby about fasting. I'm sure once I do it, I will see that I lived through it. Never succeeding at it, it just seems slightly daunting. I might post a couple more times as I get through this first day of fasting.
Love,
Erin
P.S. I figure as long as we all have finished through the first week by tonight, that will put us on the start of the next week by Friday. I like that there are 5 days per week so we can "catch up" if we need to.
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Taste and see that the Lord is better than chocolate.
Good morning ladies!
I'm at mom's today and am therefore trying to catch up on the much missed blogging. Not to mention, she has all the keys on her laptop still in tact. How much easier it is to type!!!
I will make this (or at least try to) quick. I honestly don't know what soul hunger is (personally feeling it, that is) unless it is simply that feeling that makes you want to eat but you're not hungry. Is it really that simple? I thought that was boredom and a poor use of time. I have been praying to truly FEEL the spiritual side of this study. Going on memory here, but do you all remember on day 2, I think, there was mention of a person getting to the point that they may want to hear God but they can't. I often wonder if I am that person. I pray that I'm not, obviously. I am doing the first plan and had a fast yesterday. I did that fine, oddly, and had my Psalm snacks (though I wolfed those down as I would any snack) and didn't feel satisfied by those snacks...almost as if they were just words. I read the truth, knew it applied to me, but got up and forgot what I had read. That is haste, I know, but my fear is that it is more. Any thoughts? Like you, Erin, and I'm sure you too, Sam, I want to want God more than food...the food tastes so good. God says, "TASTE AND SEE THAT THE LORD IS GOOD. Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him." I want that to be more true to me than anything right now. The donut was far tastier. I will be the first to tell you that I don't overeat on sweets because I have a problem...I just like the taste of the stuff. I realize -a little bit- that that is not completely true, but I want that to be revealed to me more fully. My satisfaction isn't going to be in the double-dippers or the chocolate covered raisins (I still have a couple food traps in the house) but only in God. That satisfaction hasn't been achieved in a long time, if ever, to be honest. I have never seen any parallel between the two, God and sweets. I am slowly seeing there is one. I am being redundant here, I know, but this is my heart. Redundantly wanting to want God more.
Tomorrow at 9 looks good for me as well. What day of the study are you all on? I "took off" on Sat and Sun. I am doing the Psalm snacks on the right days, as well as the eating plan. But I am only on day 3 of the study. How do we want to treat weekends? Perhaps it doesn't matter as long as we are at the same place on Fridays, weigh in day?
Alright, I think that's enough. I am praying for you both. I pray for no sabotage to ourselves, more power over sin and the power of the Holy Spirit to work in us to make us be more like Him and to be pillars of strength for each other.
me
I'm at mom's today and am therefore trying to catch up on the much missed blogging. Not to mention, she has all the keys on her laptop still in tact. How much easier it is to type!!!
I will make this (or at least try to) quick. I honestly don't know what soul hunger is (personally feeling it, that is) unless it is simply that feeling that makes you want to eat but you're not hungry. Is it really that simple? I thought that was boredom and a poor use of time. I have been praying to truly FEEL the spiritual side of this study. Going on memory here, but do you all remember on day 2, I think, there was mention of a person getting to the point that they may want to hear God but they can't. I often wonder if I am that person. I pray that I'm not, obviously. I am doing the first plan and had a fast yesterday. I did that fine, oddly, and had my Psalm snacks (though I wolfed those down as I would any snack) and didn't feel satisfied by those snacks...almost as if they were just words. I read the truth, knew it applied to me, but got up and forgot what I had read. That is haste, I know, but my fear is that it is more. Any thoughts? Like you, Erin, and I'm sure you too, Sam, I want to want God more than food...the food tastes so good. God says, "TASTE AND SEE THAT THE LORD IS GOOD. Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him." I want that to be more true to me than anything right now. The donut was far tastier. I will be the first to tell you that I don't overeat on sweets because I have a problem...I just like the taste of the stuff. I realize -a little bit- that that is not completely true, but I want that to be revealed to me more fully. My satisfaction isn't going to be in the double-dippers or the chocolate covered raisins (I still have a couple food traps in the house) but only in God. That satisfaction hasn't been achieved in a long time, if ever, to be honest. I have never seen any parallel between the two, God and sweets. I am slowly seeing there is one. I am being redundant here, I know, but this is my heart. Redundantly wanting to want God more.
Tomorrow at 9 looks good for me as well. What day of the study are you all on? I "took off" on Sat and Sun. I am doing the Psalm snacks on the right days, as well as the eating plan. But I am only on day 3 of the study. How do we want to treat weekends? Perhaps it doesn't matter as long as we are at the same place on Fridays, weigh in day?
Alright, I think that's enough. I am praying for you both. I pray for no sabotage to ourselves, more power over sin and the power of the Holy Spirit to work in us to make us be more like Him and to be pillars of strength for each other.
me
Monday, April 21, 2008
Simple info
Hey guys. If I stay up another 45 mins and do my bible study, it will actually count for day 4! I wish I had the motivation behind that, but it is actually the caffeine I had with dinner. Anyway, the Grabers leave in the morning, and although we have had a good visit, I will hope to get back to a little normalcy...meaning, not eating out almost every day! (Glad we weren't paying!:) UGGG...I feel like a bloated tick. (Michelle...there is another image that you can attach to the brownie mix!)
Erin, we didn't do Angel Food this month just because we didn't like what came in the box. We normally use it, and for the most part, it is decent. There are a lot of generic brands, but that is okay with us. We feed so many people, that it is all usually used as filler...you know, just to make the food stretch until next pay period. Whatever we don't use, I just put in a bag and send to the local food bank. Matter of fact, we didn't like their spaghetti. You would think a noodle is a noodle, but it's not! We have found the meat to be pretty good....filet mignon was excellent. I don't know enough about cuts of meat to know a lot, but everything has been tasty. I use all of the pork roast in a crock pot and make pulled pork for sandwiches. With all of that being said, it is definitely worth a try or two. The great thing about it is that there is no monthly commitment. Just order whenever it looks good for you. You can honestly do good meals for pennies on the dollar. Dave Ramsey advertised MealtimeMakeover.com...ever heard of it? I may check that one at as well. I'll let you know.
That is it for now...no big revelations, just lots going on. THE POOL IS UP! We hope the water samples come back okay and we can be in it by weekend.
Love you...talk to you tomorrow.
Erin, great idea on the phone call tomorrow night. Don't let me forget. 9ish?
-Sam'
Erin, we didn't do Angel Food this month just because we didn't like what came in the box. We normally use it, and for the most part, it is decent. There are a lot of generic brands, but that is okay with us. We feed so many people, that it is all usually used as filler...you know, just to make the food stretch until next pay period. Whatever we don't use, I just put in a bag and send to the local food bank. Matter of fact, we didn't like their spaghetti. You would think a noodle is a noodle, but it's not! We have found the meat to be pretty good....filet mignon was excellent. I don't know enough about cuts of meat to know a lot, but everything has been tasty. I use all of the pork roast in a crock pot and make pulled pork for sandwiches. With all of that being said, it is definitely worth a try or two. The great thing about it is that there is no monthly commitment. Just order whenever it looks good for you. You can honestly do good meals for pennies on the dollar. Dave Ramsey advertised MealtimeMakeover.com...ever heard of it? I may check that one at as well. I'll let you know.
That is it for now...no big revelations, just lots going on. THE POOL IS UP! We hope the water samples come back okay and we can be in it by weekend.
Love you...talk to you tomorrow.
Erin, great idea on the phone call tomorrow night. Don't let me forget. 9ish?
-Sam'
Erin's EOD Evaluation Day 3
Good evening. Checking in. Looking forward to hearing from you two when you get a chance.
My attempts to stop overeating have been mildly successful. I still overate at lunch probably because I was too full afterward. I have avoided my typical overeating times of the day (afternoon and after kids are in bed for the night). This afternoon I had a Psalm snack and I will have another one shortly. I still have a birthday cake food trap sitting in my kitchen that I have been thinking about all evening. I will feast on the Lord instead! Tomorrow I am going to share the cake with my kids and it will be gone.
Running to the Lord instead of food has been a challenge. I want to food. Sad to say, I want the food more than the Lord. Forgive me, Lord. I pray for my desires to change. I want to want the Lord more than food. I want a different mindset.
I did exercise today. I lifted cybex weights and ran on the treadmill for 3.5 miles while listening to a "Midday Connection" on my IPOD. It was about saving money and they recommended angel tree ministries. Is that working for you, Sam? I'm thinking about trying it this month. Has it been worth it for your family? They have a Portage location.
Looking forward to hearing from you both. Hope you get back online soon, Michelle!
Be thinking ahead to Thursday. I was thinking maybe we could 3-way call again before we fast - like Wednesday night after kids are in bed? I just know I will appreciate having you two with me for my first true fast.
Good night.
Erin
My attempts to stop overeating have been mildly successful. I still overate at lunch probably because I was too full afterward. I have avoided my typical overeating times of the day (afternoon and after kids are in bed for the night). This afternoon I had a Psalm snack and I will have another one shortly. I still have a birthday cake food trap sitting in my kitchen that I have been thinking about all evening. I will feast on the Lord instead! Tomorrow I am going to share the cake with my kids and it will be gone.
Running to the Lord instead of food has been a challenge. I want to food. Sad to say, I want the food more than the Lord. Forgive me, Lord. I pray for my desires to change. I want to want the Lord more than food. I want a different mindset.
I did exercise today. I lifted cybex weights and ran on the treadmill for 3.5 miles while listening to a "Midday Connection" on my IPOD. It was about saving money and they recommended angel tree ministries. Is that working for you, Sam? I'm thinking about trying it this month. Has it been worth it for your family? They have a Portage location.
Looking forward to hearing from you both. Hope you get back online soon, Michelle!
Be thinking ahead to Thursday. I was thinking maybe we could 3-way call again before we fast - like Wednesday night after kids are in bed? I just know I will appreciate having you two with me for my first true fast.
Good night.
Erin
Day 3
Good Morning. Feeling a little under the weather today-even let Caleb stay home from school so he can spend the last day with the Grabers. May not have been the smartest thing to do, but I did it anyway. I'm on day 3, but not really. :) I'm looking forward to really digging into this...tomorrow the Grabers leave and life will get back to being normal again. You know how it is when you have family/friends in...I feel like we have eaten out this whole week.
With that, I need to go prepare breakfast. I love you guys and will check in later.
S
With that, I need to go prepare breakfast. I love you guys and will check in later.
S
Good Monday Morning
Dear Friends,
Are you tasting of the Lord? Are you taking refuge in him today?
I prayed for both of you as I did the Day 3 study this morning. Have a great day.
I look forward to paying attention to the difference between physical hunger and soul hunger again today. With that said, I feel my stomach actually rumble for breakfast, so I will go eat slowly and enjoy having less be more satisfying!
Love,
Erin
Are you tasting of the Lord? Are you taking refuge in him today?
I prayed for both of you as I did the Day 3 study this morning. Have a great day.
I look forward to paying attention to the difference between physical hunger and soul hunger again today. With that said, I feel my stomach actually rumble for breakfast, so I will go eat slowly and enjoy having less be more satisfying!
Love,
Erin
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Moved and unsettled
Well, I am sitting on the floor in my parent's basement-no more couch, of course-and as I look around, there is so much that remains here for me to flood my house with that I almost want to cry as we have too much "stuff." I had to sit for a moment to blog...let you know that I don't have internet at the house so it may be a while for me to touch base on this.
I love to read what's going on in your lives...Sam, for some reason, reading and visualizing your "spoonful" story, I laughed so hard...I laugh because I have done the same thing. Only for me it was that I mixed a chocolate cake mix solely so that I could eat the batter...I was cut short by the sound of someone coming in the laundry room from the garage, and I was not going to let anyone see me wolfing that down, so I did the same thing. I turned on the sink and rinsed it down the drain. That was God walking in the room, or certainly a person whose timing was God sent. The "funniness" only comes in at the realization of the sin that entangles. It is just the same.
My prayer is that I can have some realizations like you all are having. There is plenty to realize, to learn about myself spiritually, but I want to experience these moments, whether they are guilt, or conviction. Whatever they are, I want to know that they are God-sent, you know? I truly do want to "taste and see..."
On a bad note, our new dryer doesn't work, but it was purchased in January and I am not too sure there is any warranty that I know of. Let's pray there is!!!
I love to read what's going on in your lives...Sam, for some reason, reading and visualizing your "spoonful" story, I laughed so hard...I laugh because I have done the same thing. Only for me it was that I mixed a chocolate cake mix solely so that I could eat the batter...I was cut short by the sound of someone coming in the laundry room from the garage, and I was not going to let anyone see me wolfing that down, so I did the same thing. I turned on the sink and rinsed it down the drain. That was God walking in the room, or certainly a person whose timing was God sent. The "funniness" only comes in at the realization of the sin that entangles. It is just the same.
My prayer is that I can have some realizations like you all are having. There is plenty to realize, to learn about myself spiritually, but I want to experience these moments, whether they are guilt, or conviction. Whatever they are, I want to know that they are God-sent, you know? I truly do want to "taste and see..."
On a bad note, our new dryer doesn't work, but it was purchased in January and I am not too sure there is any warranty that I know of. Let's pray there is!!!
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Stress Triggers
Lick the bowl? Are you kidding me! I made brownies yesterday, and even though I raked out as much as I could...okay, now that is a lie....I deliberately left some in the bottom that could be more efficiently scraped out with a spoon, and into my mouth. You should have seen me...I was hurrying, so that my father-in-law wouldn't walk in and see me with a milk mustache...because you see, it wasn't just a spoon-full, but enough that I would obviously have a chocolate mustache from cramming it into my mouth and it having nothing else to do but to seep out everywhere. So, instead, I gulped hard and took in enough air for 2 days...you get the picture. My "spoonful" literally became that as I watched Caleb and his grandpa walk through my back door. Sadly, I ran hot water into the bowl and tearfully watched the last bit of chocolate heaven swirl down the drain.
Now THAT is sad...I am such a stress-closet eater! Erin...meet Samantha. See, twins! Okay, you may not be as bad.
Today wasn't a good day, and I am too tired to go into it all. I need some sleep since I didn't get much last night...hmmmm, due to all of the bloating I was experiencing from that darn brownie mix, and from some coke I had with dinner. I also found "the lump" on my right breast again today...the one that was biopsied last year, and it should be nothing to worry about, ...just hopefully scar tissue. I haven't noticed it for almost a year now, and just scratching an itch...there it was. Yes, I was scratching my boobie! So, I naturally freaked out, but I am sure it is probably just scar tissue. You know how I freak, so just pray for me.
Michelle, I hope you are dog-tired, asleep in your new home. Erin, I hope you enjoy the party! Wish your mom a happy birthday from me, and please have a piece of cake...remember, life is to be LIVED in moderation.
I love you two!
Sam'
Now THAT is sad...I am such a stress-closet eater! Erin...meet Samantha. See, twins! Okay, you may not be as bad.
Today wasn't a good day, and I am too tired to go into it all. I need some sleep since I didn't get much last night...hmmmm, due to all of the bloating I was experiencing from that darn brownie mix, and from some coke I had with dinner. I also found "the lump" on my right breast again today...the one that was biopsied last year, and it should be nothing to worry about, ...just hopefully scar tissue. I haven't noticed it for almost a year now, and just scratching an itch...there it was. Yes, I was scratching my boobie! So, I naturally freaked out, but I am sure it is probably just scar tissue. You know how I freak, so just pray for me.
Michelle, I hope you are dog-tired, asleep in your new home. Erin, I hope you enjoy the party! Wish your mom a happy birthday from me, and please have a piece of cake...remember, life is to be LIVED in moderation.
I love you two!
Sam'
Yes, I licked the bowl, but...
Hi. Ugh. Tonight was a self-revelation night. I am seeing that I need to be honest with myself about why I do what I do.
You see, I spent the day in the company of minors. It was a good day to be available to help the lovely Svoboda clan get moved in. While I watched the kids, Chris helped move the big stuff.
As I am sure you all know, after spending the day with all kids, I was looking forward to some adult conversation. Namely with my husband. Being physically exhausted from the day, he fell asleep in his recliner even before the kids got to bed. I tried waking him up a couple times, but I was only met with a few grunts.
Disappointing for me. So, after the kids were put to bed I finished making my mom's birthday cake (party tomorrow) by making the icing. Now, NORMALLY on a night like this ... I'm truly revealing myself here ... I would almost be sort of glad that Chris was asleep on the recliner because I would have time for myself. Time to do what by myself, you ask? Oh, say, finish off the last strip of brownies from the pan, or have a row of Chips Ahoy that Michelle's MIL brought here today. You see, I would never actually be such a pig in front of my husband. But me, the junk food and whoever is on FOX News at the moment get along great.
So, I'm thinking all of this through as I am icing the cake. I am being honest with myself in saying that I truly am lonely right now. When I am lonely, I often look to food for comfort. But that food is only a temporary satisfier. It doesn't last. I need to be looking to God to fill the lonely hole I feel right now. It is almost as if God planned this day for me to realize that when I am lonely I shouldn't even necessarily be looking to my husband to fill the void, because ultimately he can't either. He disappoints, he conks out on me occasionally.
"Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the man who takes refuge in him..."
The tough part about this is that food seems easier than taking refuge in the Lord. In my head I know that it is better and more satisfying to take refuge in the Lord. I can hear and feel my flesh rebel at this truth. It is an effort to seek the Lord. It is an effort to turn from the food. Even though I know that food will not permanently satisfy, my flesh tugs at me to think about how good it feels in the moment to fill the void with food.
So, I am coming to the realization that, like anything good, this will take work and effort. I need to press on toward the goal of replacing food with God. So, yes, I made the icing and I did lick the bowl. However, I avoided the bigger binge that could so easily occur on a night such as this.
Well, girls, how's that for Day 2? Having accountability with you two is such a blessing. Thank you for being the kind of friends that can hear the honest truth and love me anyway!
~ Erin
You see, I spent the day in the company of minors. It was a good day to be available to help the lovely Svoboda clan get moved in. While I watched the kids, Chris helped move the big stuff.
As I am sure you all know, after spending the day with all kids, I was looking forward to some adult conversation. Namely with my husband. Being physically exhausted from the day, he fell asleep in his recliner even before the kids got to bed. I tried waking him up a couple times, but I was only met with a few grunts.
Disappointing for me. So, after the kids were put to bed I finished making my mom's birthday cake (party tomorrow) by making the icing. Now, NORMALLY on a night like this ... I'm truly revealing myself here ... I would almost be sort of glad that Chris was asleep on the recliner because I would have time for myself. Time to do what by myself, you ask? Oh, say, finish off the last strip of brownies from the pan, or have a row of Chips Ahoy that Michelle's MIL brought here today. You see, I would never actually be such a pig in front of my husband. But me, the junk food and whoever is on FOX News at the moment get along great.
So, I'm thinking all of this through as I am icing the cake. I am being honest with myself in saying that I truly am lonely right now. When I am lonely, I often look to food for comfort. But that food is only a temporary satisfier. It doesn't last. I need to be looking to God to fill the lonely hole I feel right now. It is almost as if God planned this day for me to realize that when I am lonely I shouldn't even necessarily be looking to my husband to fill the void, because ultimately he can't either. He disappoints, he conks out on me occasionally.
"Taste and see that the Lord is good, blessed is the man who takes refuge in him..."
The tough part about this is that food seems easier than taking refuge in the Lord. In my head I know that it is better and more satisfying to take refuge in the Lord. I can hear and feel my flesh rebel at this truth. It is an effort to seek the Lord. It is an effort to turn from the food. Even though I know that food will not permanently satisfy, my flesh tugs at me to think about how good it feels in the moment to fill the void with food.
So, I am coming to the realization that, like anything good, this will take work and effort. I need to press on toward the goal of replacing food with God. So, yes, I made the icing and I did lick the bowl. However, I avoided the bigger binge that could so easily occur on a night such as this.
Well, girls, how's that for Day 2? Having accountability with you two is such a blessing. Thank you for being the kind of friends that can hear the honest truth and love me anyway!
~ Erin
I'm Here!
Hi. I am here and have Day 2 study under my belt. Sorry I didn't check in last night. Grandma was here and sleeping in the computer room. I thought it might be rude to barge in on her, as important as blogging is!
Yesterday went okay. My goal was three moderate meals and a small snack. I accomplished that for the most part (I feel like I overate a little at lunch, as I was quite full). I did have a brownie. A small one with tea and some grapes with my grandma. That was my snack. I am really trying to relearn hunger pains versus soul hunger. I love the concept and it hits right to so many issues for me.
I ran 5 miles this morning (2 1/2 of them in the rain!) and I feel great. It is during that time I really feel like I can talk to God. Most of the time I just thank God for giving me legs that can run and endurance to finish.
I don't have too many food traps in the house at the moment - unless I bake more.
How are you girls doing with Psalm snacks? I am enjoying them and I love offering the words back to the Lord in a prayer for me, for you two and in applying it to specific issues in my life.
I'll check in later.
~Erin
Yesterday went okay. My goal was three moderate meals and a small snack. I accomplished that for the most part (I feel like I overate a little at lunch, as I was quite full). I did have a brownie. A small one with tea and some grapes with my grandma. That was my snack. I am really trying to relearn hunger pains versus soul hunger. I love the concept and it hits right to so many issues for me.
I ran 5 miles this morning (2 1/2 of them in the rain!) and I feel great. It is during that time I really feel like I can talk to God. Most of the time I just thank God for giving me legs that can run and endurance to finish.
I don't have too many food traps in the house at the moment - unless I bake more.
How are you girls doing with Psalm snacks? I am enjoying them and I love offering the words back to the Lord in a prayer for me, for you two and in applying it to specific issues in my life.
I'll check in later.
~Erin
Friday, April 18, 2008
Busy, busy, dreadfully busy
Well, it is 11:34pm...have you blogged tonight?
I still want to pack up my bathroom (who do you all know that waits until 10pm the night before a move to START packing...different indeed), and perhaps our clothes can all go in the suitcases, then I will sleep, all to get up early...ugh!!!
As for my EOD Evaluation...I will have to admit that the only part of the study that I thought about today was the actual eating part. I was so busy doing house stuff that upon looking back, there was no time to think about anything. A slight revelation would be that keeping busy battles temptation fairly successfully.
The only food traps were the oreos and I didn't have any. I honestly meant to but I must have forgotten to. Humpfh. I did have my 1/2 bowl of oatmeal this morning and a half a grilled cheese sandwich today, but I had a whole starbucks...
The thing that I don't know about is in what way I connected with the Lord today. I had a very grateful moment towards Him, but to connect, I don't know. I would like to pray that I can notice things like that more. It more often seems impossible to me to see a conection...maybe I don't know what that would look like.
Well, I need to go to bed now so that I can get up to do this study tomorow. I fell asleep driving today, at the red lights waking myself up thinking that my foot was coming off the brakes, and right now as I type, there are lulls where I have fallen asleep. Pretty soon I am going to start typing whatever words coime to me whether I am dreaming or not...that tends to be interesting!
good night ladies. Erin, I missed your post. How was your first day???
~me
I still want to pack up my bathroom (who do you all know that waits until 10pm the night before a move to START packing...different indeed), and perhaps our clothes can all go in the suitcases, then I will sleep, all to get up early...ugh!!!
As for my EOD Evaluation...I will have to admit that the only part of the study that I thought about today was the actual eating part. I was so busy doing house stuff that upon looking back, there was no time to think about anything. A slight revelation would be that keeping busy battles temptation fairly successfully.
The only food traps were the oreos and I didn't have any. I honestly meant to but I must have forgotten to. Humpfh. I did have my 1/2 bowl of oatmeal this morning and a half a grilled cheese sandwich today, but I had a whole starbucks...
The thing that I don't know about is in what way I connected with the Lord today. I had a very grateful moment towards Him, but to connect, I don't know. I would like to pray that I can notice things like that more. It more often seems impossible to me to see a conection...maybe I don't know what that would look like.
Well, I need to go to bed now so that I can get up to do this study tomorow. I fell asleep driving today, at the red lights waking myself up thinking that my foot was coming off the brakes, and right now as I type, there are lulls where I have fallen asleep. Pretty soon I am going to start typing whatever words coime to me whether I am dreaming or not...that tends to be interesting!
good night ladies. Erin, I missed your post. How was your first day???
~me
Go GREEN!
Well girls, how did you do? I started the day off on the right foot...got up before 6 to do some bible reading and to pray for you guys. I reviewed day 1 (I've already done it), decided that I was confused on which day to start the Psalms praying in the back, so I just read the first 49 verses of chapter 119. As far as my day went...It wasn't too bad, but we did eat out all day. My only "conservative" meal was my bowl of cheerios at 8 this morning. I hope to do better tomorrow. I had NO focus today...I really think this will be easier once the Grabers leave. (That sounds terrible..."can't focus on the Lord today because my mother-in-law was here!") :)
Hope you guys had a good one. Erin, if it makes you feel any better, I MADE brownies today! Yeah, so this whole "rid your house of traps" didn't happen here...yet. I say that I don't want to waste food and that my kids can enjoy them. All sounds good until I get upset at Paul, then the brownies come out!!! :)
I was readying what I had written a couple of days ago under the question "In what way did you connect with the Lord today?":
"I'm always amazed at spring! Driving home this morning from dropping Caleb off at school, I noticed all of the dew-kissed green leaves everywhere! I always love seeing the different shades and hues of green, and then it hit me...I thanked God for allowing my dormant times to be followed by green leaves...in all their hues...new, renewed, and different colors or levels and variations of spiritual growth."
Now in review, I think of us...three different moms, three different friends, three different backgrounds...all coming together to study and praise God. Three trees in a forest, all with our different variations of growth. Individually, we may spiritually look pretty good, but together, we may look amazing!
I love you!...and I'm that Vibrant green..the one with a touch of yellow undertone! :)
Sam'
Hope you guys had a good one. Erin, if it makes you feel any better, I MADE brownies today! Yeah, so this whole "rid your house of traps" didn't happen here...yet. I say that I don't want to waste food and that my kids can enjoy them. All sounds good until I get upset at Paul, then the brownies come out!!! :)
I was readying what I had written a couple of days ago under the question "In what way did you connect with the Lord today?":
"I'm always amazed at spring! Driving home this morning from dropping Caleb off at school, I noticed all of the dew-kissed green leaves everywhere! I always love seeing the different shades and hues of green, and then it hit me...I thanked God for allowing my dormant times to be followed by green leaves...in all their hues...new, renewed, and different colors or levels and variations of spiritual growth."
Now in review, I think of us...three different moms, three different friends, three different backgrounds...all coming together to study and praise God. Three trees in a forest, all with our different variations of growth. Individually, we may spiritually look pretty good, but together, we may look amazing!
I love you!...and I'm that Vibrant green..the one with a touch of yellow undertone! :)
Sam'
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Hooray!
I'm excited! I'll be waiting for your call!
Sam, you inspired me to set my photos to our screensaver. Great idea!!
Love,
E
Sam, you inspired me to set my photos to our screensaver. Great idea!!
Love,
E
Good for me
Hey...9 should be good for me. I will work it around the company...like you said Michelle, I can find all sorts of excuses, too. Erin, that Jackson is a keeper. I told everyone here the story. It sure made my heart smile! Our screen saver fades all of our photos in and out, and sometimes I find myself waisting time just watching all of them. Just the other day there were a lot of the kids when the boys were just old enough to get into that sand box. Oh, the sand. Now, I wished I would have let them play in it more. Hmmmm...I've been a grump about the sand here too...getting the pool up and I don't know if there is more sand at the foundation, or on the girls' heads. It doesn't come out easily...if nothing else, I guess their scalps are getting a good foliation during shampooings. Okay...I'm making a note of 9, and I will talk to you girls then. Tell Jackson he made Aunt Sam' smile all the way down in Texas. Both of you hug your oodles of kids for me. Talk to you tonight.
S'
S'
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Here we go
Ok gals, how about we try a three-way call tomorrow night around 9ish??? I know I can link us together rather easily. We can all get on the same page and then pray over it. Then maybe we start on Friday? It would be great to wait until we get in the house, but no matter my circumstance, I can always find an excuse not to do something...do I need more excuses???
Talk to you all tomorrow night...
Talk to you all tomorrow night...
Jackson
Jackson just said, "What are you typing?"
I said, "I'm typing to Aunt Sam and Ms. Michelle."
"About what?"
"To see if we are starting this Bible Study we are going to do."
"Aunt Sam is going to do it? Well, she has a long drive, she'll probably be late!"
I said, "I'm typing to Aunt Sam and Ms. Michelle."
"About what?"
"To see if we are starting this Bible Study we are going to do."
"Aunt Sam is going to do it? Well, she has a long drive, she'll probably be late!"
Have we started?
Are we started or not? I've just done day one. I don't want to get ahead or behind. I'm confused - are we waiting to get a call in and then going or should I be going ahead? Just want to be on the same page with y'all!
E
E
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
"Oh, Doctor!"
Well girls...today was a good day. I met with my new internist for 2 hours today and I LOVE HIM! Not, Dr. McDreamy love him, but love that he took 2 hours to ask me about every aspect of my life. (He is 1/2 black with the last name of Santiago, so you go from there. He remembers me from Dr. Smith's dental office.) Long story short, he is a specialist in fibromyalgia and is puzzled with why I was on some of the past medicine, etc. Anyway, we are doing a whole blood panel, hormone panel, xrays, etc. in the next couple of days and will meet again next Thursday to go over the whole picture. Today I received more hope for my condition than I have ever since my diagnosis. He doesn't think I will have any problems losing weight, and is taking extra pictures of my knees and lower back to make sure of which exercises will be most beneficial. We discussed my arthritis issues, sex issues (in which we concurred on what was biblical!), family issues, and he didn't even mention Jerry Springer! :) WooWoo!
So, all of that to say, I am excited about the new study and my new found health. I told him about the new study we were starting and how I hope to lose weight with it. We talked about some spiritual things that lead to the reasoning of answered prayer and why I can now sleep. Before he walked out he shook my hand and told me to keep praying, and asked me to pray for him too, as he treats me. And it was sincere, not some type of new-age thing. I have to admit, that was very cool!
Jan & Nelson will be here tomorrow around noon. So, if you guys want to get a call in before then, that would be great. If it has to be after noon, then late tomorrow night would be best for me. Okay, I need to stop chatting and start cleaning. I love you guys!
Sam'
So, all of that to say, I am excited about the new study and my new found health. I told him about the new study we were starting and how I hope to lose weight with it. We talked about some spiritual things that lead to the reasoning of answered prayer and why I can now sleep. Before he walked out he shook my hand and told me to keep praying, and asked me to pray for him too, as he treats me. And it was sincere, not some type of new-age thing. I have to admit, that was very cool!
Jan & Nelson will be here tomorrow around noon. So, if you guys want to get a call in before then, that would be great. If it has to be after noon, then late tomorrow night would be best for me. Okay, I need to stop chatting and start cleaning. I love you guys!
Sam'
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Starting??
I am planning on going ahead and beginning DAY 1 of the study tomorrow. I am setting my alarm for 6 a.m. to give me plenty of time to get it in.
As far as an eating plan, honestly the first one sounds way scary right now. Maybe after I begin the study it won't, but I don't want to set myself up for failure. For tomorrow, I am going to try to be French and taste my food, eat slowly and have three small meals and one small snack. Let me know what you girls are doing.
I'm excited to start, but I can hold back if we decide to.
Better go to bed if I'm getting up at 6.
Love you two!
E
As far as an eating plan, honestly the first one sounds way scary right now. Maybe after I begin the study it won't, but I don't want to set myself up for failure. For tomorrow, I am going to try to be French and taste my food, eat slowly and have three small meals and one small snack. Let me know what you girls are doing.
I'm excited to start, but I can hold back if we decide to.
Better go to bed if I'm getting up at 6.
Love you two!
E
Saturday, April 12, 2008
I'm ready to start!
Oh, Praise God, I am not talking about my period! :) For you two with uterus', I feel for you. Anyway, I am ready to start, but I will wait if need to. I was just wondering if Michelle would be moving in on Tuesday. I know that was the goal, but I hadn't heard the latest updates. Jan & Nelson are coming in on Wednesday, so if we do any of the meal plans, I'll have to tweak it a bit. Let me know when you guys are ready! These past couple of days I've HAD TO BE PMSing!!! I've eaten anything and everything and wanted more! My right nipple is about to burn off, and I've gone 0-60 with anger management. I've cried that my 3 year olds don't appreciate me ....really! OH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD WOMAN, THEY ARE 3!!! GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF! I'm back in Cinderella mode of just being the maid. Yeah, so I need an attitude change! And the sooner I can personally get on this study, the better. Okay, need to get up at 5:30 tomorrow morning, so I'm going to take my 70 year old knees and go to bed. Love you both!
Sam'
Sam'
Let's Get Ready, Get Set, Go Monday?!?
Okay, ladies. I have the book in hand. Gulp. I know I need to do this. I don't really know if I want to do this. Which is all the more why I need to do this.
So, from browsing the intro - are we going to stick to one of the suggested eating plans? Do we want Day 1 to be Monday? I want to make sure we actually do this, so do we need to give ourselves a little more than a week to complete a week of study? Just thinking of us as mothers of young ones and reality. Or do we want to get really strict and keep it "as is" in the book?
Thoughts, suggestions... I'm ready if you are... I think. Ugh. I'm really glad this is an accountability thing because I'm going to need it.
Okay, pray for my attitude to change in the next 30 hours before we begin. Part of me is excited. Really!!
I'm especially excited because it has been a long time since I have done a Bible study and this one is sooo needed in my life. Yeah.
Also, Michelle, I know this is a crazy time for you. Of course, no time is a good time, but back to reality - would it be better to wait until you have moved into your house? I know that would delay us yet another week, but I'd like to get a great start if we can.
Waiting to hear from you both...
E
So, from browsing the intro - are we going to stick to one of the suggested eating plans? Do we want Day 1 to be Monday? I want to make sure we actually do this, so do we need to give ourselves a little more than a week to complete a week of study? Just thinking of us as mothers of young ones and reality. Or do we want to get really strict and keep it "as is" in the book?
Thoughts, suggestions... I'm ready if you are... I think. Ugh. I'm really glad this is an accountability thing because I'm going to need it.
Okay, pray for my attitude to change in the next 30 hours before we begin. Part of me is excited. Really!!
I'm especially excited because it has been a long time since I have done a Bible study and this one is sooo needed in my life. Yeah.
Also, Michelle, I know this is a crazy time for you. Of course, no time is a good time, but back to reality - would it be better to wait until you have moved into your house? I know that would delay us yet another week, but I'd like to get a great start if we can.
Waiting to hear from you both...
E
Thursday, April 10, 2008
No book yet...
Sorry for delaying our start on this book, girls. I appreciate your patience.
Phew. How come I find time to blog when I have the Svoboda kids?? All seven darlings are laying down for quiet/nap time. It has been an eventful couple of hours. Titus was on payback duty for Abby dropping him down the stairs at six weeks old. He showed Makenna how to squeeze toothpaste all over the carpet. She thought it was quite fun and helped rub it in really good in five different areas of the hall. The sad thing is, I was within view of them the entire time, but thought they were still playing with a puzzle that they had been playing with moments before. I got it clean enough that I probably won't need to mention it to Chris, so all is well.
I have found it difficult to get the amount of workouts in that I really want to lately. However, I am still doing okay. I like the idea of adding some situps to my routine. I am weight training twice a week, but situps I can do anytime! Should we try for 20 full situps or 100 crunches per day??
How are you doing, Sam?
Michelle, to answer your question, I am okay. I am really wanting to get into the WORD more. I used to wake up, exercise and read the Bible. Now that I'm going to the Y, I am not getting up at all. I know I still need to get up at least a half an hour early (6:30 a.m. or 6:15 if I'm getting a shower) to set myself right for the day. As far as food... well, I haven't totally binged on anything lately, but I haven't been very motivated to make wise choices either. For example, supper last night was chips with salsa/bean/cheese dip and a bowl of sugary cereal. Hmmmmm. No, I did not feed my kids that. I just never eat with them because it is so early on Wednesday before AWANA and then when we get home, Chris has eaten and I just kind of raid the kitchen. I honestly have no motivation right now to make wise food choices. I know that is not right, but it is where I am at. I am really hoping for a kick in the butt from this book. I'm going to check to mail... maybe it will be here today??
More later,
E
Phew. How come I find time to blog when I have the Svoboda kids?? All seven darlings are laying down for quiet/nap time. It has been an eventful couple of hours. Titus was on payback duty for Abby dropping him down the stairs at six weeks old. He showed Makenna how to squeeze toothpaste all over the carpet. She thought it was quite fun and helped rub it in really good in five different areas of the hall. The sad thing is, I was within view of them the entire time, but thought they were still playing with a puzzle that they had been playing with moments before. I got it clean enough that I probably won't need to mention it to Chris, so all is well.
I have found it difficult to get the amount of workouts in that I really want to lately. However, I am still doing okay. I like the idea of adding some situps to my routine. I am weight training twice a week, but situps I can do anytime! Should we try for 20 full situps or 100 crunches per day??
How are you doing, Sam?
Michelle, to answer your question, I am okay. I am really wanting to get into the WORD more. I used to wake up, exercise and read the Bible. Now that I'm going to the Y, I am not getting up at all. I know I still need to get up at least a half an hour early (6:30 a.m. or 6:15 if I'm getting a shower) to set myself right for the day. As far as food... well, I haven't totally binged on anything lately, but I haven't been very motivated to make wise choices either. For example, supper last night was chips with salsa/bean/cheese dip and a bowl of sugary cereal. Hmmmmm. No, I did not feed my kids that. I just never eat with them because it is so early on Wednesday before AWANA and then when we get home, Chris has eaten and I just kind of raid the kitchen. I honestly have no motivation right now to make wise food choices. I know that is not right, but it is where I am at. I am really hoping for a kick in the butt from this book. I'm going to check to mail... maybe it will be here today??
More later,
E
Monday, April 7, 2008
These are difficult to name
Today is so much better than last night...lemme tell you. Sam it was good talking to you, as usual. Then, my workout, though abreviated, was nice. The Hobart/Portage Cardinal has this new jogging like machine that I really liked, so maybe I will be going there more now...
I am maintaining my 188ish weight, and the wedding is June 21st, so I have at least 10 to lose by then. I have decided to tell myself that I am worth far more than the brief pleasure of the given food. Sometimes it works! Let's get that study started.
How did everyone do today? Sam, how's your dad and mom and all? Anything new going on? Treatment or diagnoses for your dad and what came of your mom's tests? How are you handling all of that?
This is going to be a quick one, so before I go, is there anything that you all would like me to pray for specifically...?
Erin, how are you doing? Just because I see you and all, doesn't mean that I can't blog individually to you, too...
Are you doing alright with eating? What's going on with you...?
Alright ladies, I am signing off...let's share some more small goals and try attaining them. Then once the study gets underway we have another task on our hands for accountability and growth...you with me?
goodnight all~
I am maintaining my 188ish weight, and the wedding is June 21st, so I have at least 10 to lose by then. I have decided to tell myself that I am worth far more than the brief pleasure of the given food. Sometimes it works! Let's get that study started.
How did everyone do today? Sam, how's your dad and mom and all? Anything new going on? Treatment or diagnoses for your dad and what came of your mom's tests? How are you handling all of that?
This is going to be a quick one, so before I go, is there anything that you all would like me to pray for specifically...?
Erin, how are you doing? Just because I see you and all, doesn't mean that I can't blog individually to you, too...
Are you doing alright with eating? What's going on with you...?
Alright ladies, I am signing off...let's share some more small goals and try attaining them. Then once the study gets underway we have another task on our hands for accountability and growth...you with me?
goodnight all~
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Blue is my color
Hello ladies...
For whatever reason I am on the verge of tears right now...I think it's just stress. That and the "poor me" blues or something like that, along with a lot on my mind. I had no idea it had been so long since I have blogged and I am so sorry! Sam you have been wonderfully faithful and I am thankful for that! It's amazing the changes in life that you can make when you are faithfully in God's word. Perhaps I wouldn't feel those first two sentences if I were. That's to say I am ready to start this study yesterday.
As for a training routine, I go to the gym MWF right after taking Elijah to school. I generally alternate a bit over half and hour on the treadmill (with steep inclines) and the elyptical machine with high resistance. What should we add to it? I could use to do crunches...any particular number we want to do and what are these butt crunches you all are talking about? Did I miss a blog? And by the way, I know exercize is supposed to get those energy endorphins flowing, but I am always tired when I am done. Looks like I need to go get my blood taken again and see how my levels are and whatnot. Yippee.
Well, can you all pray that we make our little April 15th deadline to get in the house? I could possibly go ballistic if we don't. I just feel so unmotivated for so many things, I can't explain it, but that day is so close.
Ok, I don't belive I have anything to say that is much worth listening to, so I think that is close to my queue to be done and go to bed. Perhaps if I get to bed at a normal time I could feel better after a workout.
I love you guys and am glad to be doing this, no matter how sporadically it is. I guess a positive spin would be to say that at least I'm consistent!!!
me
For whatever reason I am on the verge of tears right now...I think it's just stress. That and the "poor me" blues or something like that, along with a lot on my mind. I had no idea it had been so long since I have blogged and I am so sorry! Sam you have been wonderfully faithful and I am thankful for that! It's amazing the changes in life that you can make when you are faithfully in God's word. Perhaps I wouldn't feel those first two sentences if I were. That's to say I am ready to start this study yesterday.
As for a training routine, I go to the gym MWF right after taking Elijah to school. I generally alternate a bit over half and hour on the treadmill (with steep inclines) and the elyptical machine with high resistance. What should we add to it? I could use to do crunches...any particular number we want to do and what are these butt crunches you all are talking about? Did I miss a blog? And by the way, I know exercize is supposed to get those energy endorphins flowing, but I am always tired when I am done. Looks like I need to go get my blood taken again and see how my levels are and whatnot. Yippee.
Well, can you all pray that we make our little April 15th deadline to get in the house? I could possibly go ballistic if we don't. I just feel so unmotivated for so many things, I can't explain it, but that day is so close.
Ok, I don't belive I have anything to say that is much worth listening to, so I think that is close to my queue to be done and go to bed. Perhaps if I get to bed at a normal time I could feel better after a workout.
I love you guys and am glad to be doing this, no matter how sporadically it is. I guess a positive spin would be to say that at least I'm consistent!!!
me
Thoughts of you...made me cry
Our drama team did this presentation this morning at church...two girls on opposite sides of the stage. One...a pregnant girl who had just moved away from her family for the very first time...was put on bed rest as soon as they got to their new home. No friends, family, etc. You get the picture. The story goes that God had been prompting the other girl's heart to reach out to a new neighbor, the one she had never seen, etc. Girl one was so lonely and scared, and was questioning everything ...did they make the right decision, was she going to have a healthy baby, did God even know she was there at all? She had to rely on God to meet all of her needs. Oh, and by the way, the husband was working long hours.
Girl 2 finally meets her after months of busyness and ends up meeting all of Girl 1's needs. Her (girl 1) family lived away and was unable to come after the baby was born, etc. They were both delighted to see how God had met needs in both of their lives. Bottom line...trusting God when it doesn't make sense, and He will use others to meet every need.
Okay, as you can imagine...the lights come up and I am weeping...I can't even look at Paul! People who know about our move to Indiana had searched me out in our large sanctuary and was just smiling at me as if that were my identical story. Caleb is loudly asking Paul why I am crying and he gently says, "she misses her two friends in Indiana!"
Darn you guys...I had mascara all over my face, and it was only 8:15 a.m. What a way to start the day! :) I do miss you guys and hope you had a beautiful Sunday. It is absolutely gorgeous here and we just came in from playing outside. Now, for a speedy relay to get the kids ready for choir. Paul had a deacon's meeting as we prepare for communion tonight. That is going to be interesting...our first time with all 3 kids in with us. Fun, Fun! Love you both and will talk to you soon.
Sam'
Girl 2 finally meets her after months of busyness and ends up meeting all of Girl 1's needs. Her (girl 1) family lived away and was unable to come after the baby was born, etc. They were both delighted to see how God had met needs in both of their lives. Bottom line...trusting God when it doesn't make sense, and He will use others to meet every need.
Okay, as you can imagine...the lights come up and I am weeping...I can't even look at Paul! People who know about our move to Indiana had searched me out in our large sanctuary and was just smiling at me as if that were my identical story. Caleb is loudly asking Paul why I am crying and he gently says, "she misses her two friends in Indiana!"
Darn you guys...I had mascara all over my face, and it was only 8:15 a.m. What a way to start the day! :) I do miss you guys and hope you had a beautiful Sunday. It is absolutely gorgeous here and we just came in from playing outside. Now, for a speedy relay to get the kids ready for choir. Paul had a deacon's meeting as we prepare for communion tonight. That is going to be interesting...our first time with all 3 kids in with us. Fun, Fun! Love you both and will talk to you soon.
Sam'
Thursday, April 3, 2008
One step at a time!
Well, my handy-dandy pedometer shows that I only walked about 3000 steps today. Of course, I wasn't wearing it when I went for my couple of brief walks today, so that should add about 500 more or so. But my goodness, how in the world am I going to get in 10,000 a day without training for a marathon? I guess I will just have to get up and do a quick walk in the morning and maybe one in the evening. I succeeded another day of training, this time...arm work, bicycling, and an evening walk with Paul and the kids once I realized my Biggest Loser DVD was skipping. It wasn't as heart pumping as the video, but at least it was a walk outside. We are having the sand for the pool delivered tomorrow, so I will be busting it moving sand this weekend. We will also be working out at dad's, so I will be getting a workout in even if it isn't completely categorized as a workout. Way to go...just keep working them in anywhere you can!
Some frustration is coming to the surface now ...I think in regards to dad. I first have to find out where it is coming from and why, and then go from there. I need to stay focused and not take things with dad so personally. I should have this down by now, I mean for God's sake, I'm almost 40! (is that taking the name of the Lord in vain?)
Dear Erin,
It was great to hear your voice, even if it was just for a couple of minutes before your husbands all got together for a weekend of games, farting, and scratching. (themselves, hopefully....anything else would be a little too weird!) I'm envious that you girls get to spend more time together. Good for you guys! Yeah, don't worry about little ol' me...sitting here with no girlfriends who want to come stay at my house. I think I'll just go eat some ice cream. :)
Dear Michelle,
Hello. How are you? My name is Samantha. Remember me? The cute, funny one who lives in Texas? Do you even remember how to blog, or has poor little Titus taking that joy from you too. :) Forgive me, but I just couldn't resist! Seriously though, how are you friend? I'll try to call you next week. We are going to see how this weekend goes with dad and how he is feeling. I hate to plan anything right now just because so much has been changing so fast. He is at home and is doing about what we thought he would do, which isn't much. I feel bad in saying that, because he actually can't do much. My frustration comes in where he wants certain things, done certain ways, and none of it really matters much. No, seriously...like what time the chickens get fed. Really...come on...they're chickens! But to him, they are life. Did I mention I was a little frustrated? :)
How is the training going for you? How much do you have left on your goal? When is the wedding? Okay, you girls have fun this weekend, but don't overdo it!
Love you all!
Sam'
Some frustration is coming to the surface now ...I think in regards to dad. I first have to find out where it is coming from and why, and then go from there. I need to stay focused and not take things with dad so personally. I should have this down by now, I mean for God's sake, I'm almost 40! (is that taking the name of the Lord in vain?)
Dear Erin,
It was great to hear your voice, even if it was just for a couple of minutes before your husbands all got together for a weekend of games, farting, and scratching. (themselves, hopefully....anything else would be a little too weird!) I'm envious that you girls get to spend more time together. Good for you guys! Yeah, don't worry about little ol' me...sitting here with no girlfriends who want to come stay at my house. I think I'll just go eat some ice cream. :)
Dear Michelle,
Hello. How are you? My name is Samantha. Remember me? The cute, funny one who lives in Texas? Do you even remember how to blog, or has poor little Titus taking that joy from you too. :) Forgive me, but I just couldn't resist! Seriously though, how are you friend? I'll try to call you next week. We are going to see how this weekend goes with dad and how he is feeling. I hate to plan anything right now just because so much has been changing so fast. He is at home and is doing about what we thought he would do, which isn't much. I feel bad in saying that, because he actually can't do much. My frustration comes in where he wants certain things, done certain ways, and none of it really matters much. No, seriously...like what time the chickens get fed. Really...come on...they're chickens! But to him, they are life. Did I mention I was a little frustrated? :)
How is the training going for you? How much do you have left on your goal? When is the wedding? Okay, you girls have fun this weekend, but don't overdo it!
Love you all!
Sam'
Go Sam'
Dear Sam'
See, the thought that you were feeling lighter wasn't all in your mind. Although the scale doesn't show much of a difference, aren't you glad you got out that tape measure? Just in you midriff alone, you have lost 1.50 inches, and we all know that added weight right in that area increases your chances of heart disease. And with your family history, you don't need any help there! You've lost a total of 5.75 inches in 60 days, and that is without even really trying!!! Can you imagine what can be done in the next 60 days of your training?!? You HAVE the power to do this! You know the Lord is more than willing to give you extra strength to do this because he wants a happier, healthier you. Well, lets rephrase that...He wants a holier you...a you that focuses on Him and all of the good things He has given you! A you who runs around outside and plays with her kids and enjoys doing so! A you who has time for your husband because you got your large butt in bed at a decent time and got His Word into your heart early in the day! A you that He will be proud of. A new you, with a new, healthy figure to replace the picture on His refrigerator!
You splurged a little today at "Horton Hears a Who" with the coke and popcorn, and right now, you can feel the butter pouring out of your pores! It tasted good, but boy, it doesn't feel good now does it? Remember that the next time that tempts you, okay? Little changes is all it takes to make big differences.
So, what do I want to see within the next 60 days from you:
1. Don't worry and get down on yourself when the scale doesn't budge. Inches are being lost, and ultimately, the numbers will go down.
2. You are really becoming an athlete in training. You haven't been an athlete since High School! I'm so proud of you for busting it these past couple of days. Don't let Satan get you down when he reminds you that it has only been 3 days. EVERY SUCCESSFUL ATHLETE HAD TO HAVE THE FIRST THREE DAYS!
3. Pray and sing when working out. Singing "Lord, I Lift Your Name on High" while doing those butt crunches really made the time fly. What a way to praise God as you are strengthening this temple He created just for you! MAKE YOURSELF AND THE GIRLS A STRENGTH-TRAINING CD TO LISTEN TO WHILE YOU GUYS WORK OUT.
4. I want you to keep your attitude in check. Stress makes you do weird things, and you can blame PMS, or anything else, but YOU still have the control to keep yourself in line. When you feel like screaming at the kids...bust a move, not them!
You're doing good. Keep it up!
Love you!
Me
See, the thought that you were feeling lighter wasn't all in your mind. Although the scale doesn't show much of a difference, aren't you glad you got out that tape measure? Just in you midriff alone, you have lost 1.50 inches, and we all know that added weight right in that area increases your chances of heart disease. And with your family history, you don't need any help there! You've lost a total of 5.75 inches in 60 days, and that is without even really trying!!! Can you imagine what can be done in the next 60 days of your training?!? You HAVE the power to do this! You know the Lord is more than willing to give you extra strength to do this because he wants a happier, healthier you. Well, lets rephrase that...He wants a holier you...a you that focuses on Him and all of the good things He has given you! A you who runs around outside and plays with her kids and enjoys doing so! A you who has time for your husband because you got your large butt in bed at a decent time and got His Word into your heart early in the day! A you that He will be proud of. A new you, with a new, healthy figure to replace the picture on His refrigerator!
You splurged a little today at "Horton Hears a Who" with the coke and popcorn, and right now, you can feel the butter pouring out of your pores! It tasted good, but boy, it doesn't feel good now does it? Remember that the next time that tempts you, okay? Little changes is all it takes to make big differences.
So, what do I want to see within the next 60 days from you:
1. Don't worry and get down on yourself when the scale doesn't budge. Inches are being lost, and ultimately, the numbers will go down.
2. You are really becoming an athlete in training. You haven't been an athlete since High School! I'm so proud of you for busting it these past couple of days. Don't let Satan get you down when he reminds you that it has only been 3 days. EVERY SUCCESSFUL ATHLETE HAD TO HAVE THE FIRST THREE DAYS!
3. Pray and sing when working out. Singing "Lord, I Lift Your Name on High" while doing those butt crunches really made the time fly. What a way to praise God as you are strengthening this temple He created just for you! MAKE YOURSELF AND THE GIRLS A STRENGTH-TRAINING CD TO LISTEN TO WHILE YOU GUYS WORK OUT.
4. I want you to keep your attitude in check. Stress makes you do weird things, and you can blame PMS, or anything else, but YOU still have the control to keep yourself in line. When you feel like screaming at the kids...bust a move, not them!
You're doing good. Keep it up!
Love you!
Me
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
Welcome Back!!!
Oh Erin, I needed to hear that! Thanks for blogging. I have just a moment to put thoughts down, so I thought I would take it. I have been bummed today...not sure why...but I think it is just because I am so tired. You know how I get when I get tired...it has been a busy couple of weeks, and the fun isn't over yet! So please keep me in your prayers that I can keep some type of balance, as I try not to get consumed with test/biopsy results for mom & dad. With that being said, I think I am probably PMSing. Kinda hard to keep up with when you don't have any periods. Alleluia! Anyway, I am SO tired that all up my "you go girl!" attitude, turned into smoke up my butt today! I still haven't worked out, now have 4 kids at the house, and just downed 2 pieces of Little Ceasar's pizza. The pizza looked "all natural" with all of the grease floating on top of the pepperoni! Yeah, so Erin, I got pumped after just reading your blog. I think I am going to do 100 crunches right here in the study after this. We have awana tonight, but lets see if I can get some training in before I leave.
Here are a couple of things to ponder:
1. I bought a pedometer yesterday. A cheap one, but still a pedometer. I've heard we are to be walking 10,000 steps per day. Low and behold at 4:14 p.m. I only have 279 steps! Good Grief! Can't you tell I laid around all day...still haven't folded all of those clothes!
2. www.praisemoves.com is something you may want to check out. I like the fact of what the actual yoga positions do for your body, but hate the fact that it is all New Age, "emptying your mind" to only have it filled with something that states "it" connects you with the Super Power. Yeah, enough about that. I had a friend tell me about this DVD (they also have Praise Moves for kids) and I went to the website today and checked it out. I had Paul check into it as well, just because of all of the "principalities of the air/darkness" we fight, and I didn't want to open my mind and our home to anything of that nature. The site really digs into "Christian Yoga" and why there isn't any such thing, and how easily we as Christians open our minds to other forces without even realizing it. So, I am not sure if I am going to buy this, but thought you guys may be interested. You know how freaky I am about spiritual realm. Let me know your thoughts on it, etc.
3. Erin, let us know when you get your book and we will start together. I don't want to go any further just because I think it is important that we all stay on the same page. I mean, look how easy it is for us to withdrawal from just blogging. With that being said, we can stay encouraged with following up with one another's actions and answers.
4. ...and that brings me to "our training" schedules. What do you girls think? Maybe if we can have an intense 30 mins of weight training, in whatever form or exercises we choose, it will help us keep our own cardio up and going. It just helps me to think your butt is feeling the same burn mine is feeling. Ahhh, friendship. :)
Okay, I am going now. Doing my crunches before I even leave this room. 100 of them!
Burn baby, burn!
Sam'
Here are a couple of things to ponder:
1. I bought a pedometer yesterday. A cheap one, but still a pedometer. I've heard we are to be walking 10,000 steps per day. Low and behold at 4:14 p.m. I only have 279 steps! Good Grief! Can't you tell I laid around all day...still haven't folded all of those clothes!
2. www.praisemoves.com is something you may want to check out. I like the fact of what the actual yoga positions do for your body, but hate the fact that it is all New Age, "emptying your mind" to only have it filled with something that states "it" connects you with the Super Power. Yeah, enough about that. I had a friend tell me about this DVD (they also have Praise Moves for kids) and I went to the website today and checked it out. I had Paul check into it as well, just because of all of the "principalities of the air/darkness" we fight, and I didn't want to open my mind and our home to anything of that nature. The site really digs into "Christian Yoga" and why there isn't any such thing, and how easily we as Christians open our minds to other forces without even realizing it. So, I am not sure if I am going to buy this, but thought you guys may be interested. You know how freaky I am about spiritual realm. Let me know your thoughts on it, etc.
3. Erin, let us know when you get your book and we will start together. I don't want to go any further just because I think it is important that we all stay on the same page. I mean, look how easy it is for us to withdrawal from just blogging. With that being said, we can stay encouraged with following up with one another's actions and answers.
4. ...and that brings me to "our training" schedules. What do you girls think? Maybe if we can have an intense 30 mins of weight training, in whatever form or exercises we choose, it will help us keep our own cardio up and going. It just helps me to think your butt is feeling the same burn mine is feeling. Ahhh, friendship. :)
Okay, I am going now. Doing my crunches before I even leave this room. 100 of them!
Burn baby, burn!
Sam'
I AM SO SORRY FOR BEING THE WORLD'S WORST FRIEND AND BLOGGER!!
Okay, Okay. I am really sorry for dropping the ball on this girls. Shame on me! I need this just as much if not more than you two and I have neglected it since early March. Nearly a month. Phew!!
Well, I have caught up on every missed blog and I ordered the book. I hope to get it soon and then I am ready to start. If you two have gone ahead, I'll catch up. If you don't mind waiting, I promise to get it in gear as soon as I get the book.
Sam, you AMAZE me. I am so proud of you. Good for you to get your work out in. I really struggle with that too, but it is so important for our long term health. I was really down yesterday and I site a major contributing factor to not getting my workout in. Those endorphins are God's natural high for us and I find when I exercise I actually have more energy for the other things I need to do throughout the day. Also, I sleep better. So good for you, Sam. It is OKAY to prioritize your workout above other things. I would love to talk exercise schedules and challenges. I love what you wrote about TRAINING, Sam. That is sooo what I am doing. I really feel unmotivated unless I have a goal. I have revised my goals a little due to reality being what it is.
My goal it to run in the "Run For Hope 5K" at Holy Cross College (my brother organizes this run) at the end of April. And then I am going to do a 10K at the end of May. Hopefully I can make it to a half-marathon later in the summer, but we shall see.
Okay, confession time. I haven't been paying one bit of attention to what I eat. Ugh. I just don't care and I like cookies. Isn't that bad? As I type I am sitting next to a bag of Golden Oreos. Prior to reading all these blogs, I ate about 10. With milk. Yum. So, you see, I really need this blog too. I know at this moment in time, my strong point is exercising and goal setting and encouraging in that capacity. However, when it comes to food, I honestly feel helpless sometimes and I really don't like facing the true gluttony I have with regard to it. So, hopefully you can encourage me there.
I haven't posted much because I was so focused on my vacation - which was awesome. And I have been enjoying my husband. With the growth we've had the past year, I feel like the last month was another giant step in the right direction for us. It is so awesome to be "on the same team" with my husband. You two might not understand it completely, but when I honestly have not had that kind of partnership and am now experiencing it, I am very thankful. So, a lot of the last month has been focused on my husband and family. I apologize for my hiatus, but I know you understand. It just felt much needed to be focusing "inward" and I thank God for his many blessings. Chris and I are really excited about how "tight" we are right now and while I don't expect to always be on Cloud Nine Lovey Dovey with him, it has been a wonderful renewal of our marriage. I am excited to see what this year may bring for our family.
As for a girl's getaway next year. Ugh - yes, please, sign me up! And a getting out of debt side note for you Sam: You know we're pretty on board with the Ramsey philosophy and getting out of debt. I don't know what he would say about this or where you all are at, but hear me out...
We did take a month off of paying down our debt to vacation together. So, we sacrificed a slow down of the snowball, if you will. However, we paid cash for the vacation and really bargain shopped to make it affordable. Now we are back home and ready to hit it hard again! For us, it was worth that slow down to get away and breathe. And it was a celebration of how far we've come and gearing up for cracking down again. It is so fun to have another friend who is so on board with the Ramsey idea.
Anyway, kids are stirring and waking from nap. Time to sign off. I hope to return very soon.
Love you both,
Erin
Well, I have caught up on every missed blog and I ordered the book. I hope to get it soon and then I am ready to start. If you two have gone ahead, I'll catch up. If you don't mind waiting, I promise to get it in gear as soon as I get the book.
Sam, you AMAZE me. I am so proud of you. Good for you to get your work out in. I really struggle with that too, but it is so important for our long term health. I was really down yesterday and I site a major contributing factor to not getting my workout in. Those endorphins are God's natural high for us and I find when I exercise I actually have more energy for the other things I need to do throughout the day. Also, I sleep better. So good for you, Sam. It is OKAY to prioritize your workout above other things. I would love to talk exercise schedules and challenges. I love what you wrote about TRAINING, Sam. That is sooo what I am doing. I really feel unmotivated unless I have a goal. I have revised my goals a little due to reality being what it is.
My goal it to run in the "Run For Hope 5K" at Holy Cross College (my brother organizes this run) at the end of April. And then I am going to do a 10K at the end of May. Hopefully I can make it to a half-marathon later in the summer, but we shall see.
Okay, confession time. I haven't been paying one bit of attention to what I eat. Ugh. I just don't care and I like cookies. Isn't that bad? As I type I am sitting next to a bag of Golden Oreos. Prior to reading all these blogs, I ate about 10. With milk. Yum. So, you see, I really need this blog too. I know at this moment in time, my strong point is exercising and goal setting and encouraging in that capacity. However, when it comes to food, I honestly feel helpless sometimes and I really don't like facing the true gluttony I have with regard to it. So, hopefully you can encourage me there.
I haven't posted much because I was so focused on my vacation - which was awesome. And I have been enjoying my husband. With the growth we've had the past year, I feel like the last month was another giant step in the right direction for us. It is so awesome to be "on the same team" with my husband. You two might not understand it completely, but when I honestly have not had that kind of partnership and am now experiencing it, I am very thankful. So, a lot of the last month has been focused on my husband and family. I apologize for my hiatus, but I know you understand. It just felt much needed to be focusing "inward" and I thank God for his many blessings. Chris and I are really excited about how "tight" we are right now and while I don't expect to always be on Cloud Nine Lovey Dovey with him, it has been a wonderful renewal of our marriage. I am excited to see what this year may bring for our family.
As for a girl's getaway next year. Ugh - yes, please, sign me up! And a getting out of debt side note for you Sam: You know we're pretty on board with the Ramsey philosophy and getting out of debt. I don't know what he would say about this or where you all are at, but hear me out...
We did take a month off of paying down our debt to vacation together. So, we sacrificed a slow down of the snowball, if you will. However, we paid cash for the vacation and really bargain shopped to make it affordable. Now we are back home and ready to hit it hard again! For us, it was worth that slow down to get away and breathe. And it was a celebration of how far we've come and gearing up for cracking down again. It is so fun to have another friend who is so on board with the Ramsey idea.
Anyway, kids are stirring and waking from nap. Time to sign off. I hope to return very soon.
Love you both,
Erin
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Dear Sam'
Dear Sam',
You had way too much sugar today. However, you didn't overeat, you just ate the wrong things. I'm proud of you for busting your butt and your knees during the grueling 50 minute Biggest Loser Cardio workout! I didn't think you would have it in you with not exercising at all last week, but you've dug back in this week and have two successful days. With the stress you've been under lately, you should be proud. Keeping yourself mentally and emotionally charged is going to be crucial in the next couple of months. Check out those Praise Moves (Christian yoga) and go from there! The ball is now rolling. I like your new thinking after tonight's Biggest Loser episode...changing the word "exercising" to "training." Exercising has such a negative connotation to it...nothing to look forward to. "Training" on the other hand, has something you are working toward...something to look forward to...something that says, "I've sat that goal, and I'm on my way to achieving it!" Way to go...it all starts in the mind. If I can allow the Lord to change that, then the weight loss will follow. Look at you, ...starting to take care of yourself! And, your toenails are pretty too!
Me.
Dear Michelle and Erin,
Please pardon me, but I had to do that. For whatever reason, I am finding my inter dialog changing and I need to document that, so don't be surprised to see Dear Sams. How are you two? Blog! Blog! Blog! Even if it is just 5 mins during your busy day. I'm doing all I can to get the proper amount of sleep these days. That has been hard the last couple of weeks...either staying at the hospital, or just dreading the worst will be soon, but sleep hasn't been my friend. With that, instead of giving up and forgetting it all, I've decided that it is okay to allow time for myself first. By the time I get back home from dropping Caleb off at school, it is about 8:45. With a little pick up of the house, bible study, and exercise, I am busy until lunch. I normally would put the exercise off until the evening, and then it would never get done...I'm too tired by that time. I'm okay (for now) with the 8 loads of laundry still on the love seat waiting to be folded, and now ironed. In order for me to drop this weight, I am going to have to put God first, and me second...no matter what time I get out of bed. Looking back on today, I am so glad I decided to work out at 10:30 until hoping I would do it later. Now, I'm happy to say my knees are killing me and are waiting for some ice, but my heart is smiling! This...Peter/Paul thing stinks! :) So, I will take my happy little heart to rub down my frowning knees with heated muscle rub, and go to bed. Here is my last plea...I need you guys to post!!! I don't think I can properly explain how much I need it and how much I get out of reading from the two of you. Also, what do you guys think about arranging a certain type of workout schedule that all of us can do on the same days of the week? Now Erin, you can't go expect me to run miles, but I thought this would be a good way to break our training up. What do you think? Each of us can pick 3 exercises a piece, weight used, etc and encourage each of us to do them that day. It would definitely change routines up. I'm strictly thinking weight training stuff...maybe with some cardio. Don't know. Ya'll think about it. I'm going to bed. Love you!
Sam'
You had way too much sugar today. However, you didn't overeat, you just ate the wrong things. I'm proud of you for busting your butt and your knees during the grueling 50 minute Biggest Loser Cardio workout! I didn't think you would have it in you with not exercising at all last week, but you've dug back in this week and have two successful days. With the stress you've been under lately, you should be proud. Keeping yourself mentally and emotionally charged is going to be crucial in the next couple of months. Check out those Praise Moves (Christian yoga) and go from there! The ball is now rolling. I like your new thinking after tonight's Biggest Loser episode...changing the word "exercising" to "training." Exercising has such a negative connotation to it...nothing to look forward to. "Training" on the other hand, has something you are working toward...something to look forward to...something that says, "I've sat that goal, and I'm on my way to achieving it!" Way to go...it all starts in the mind. If I can allow the Lord to change that, then the weight loss will follow. Look at you, ...starting to take care of yourself! And, your toenails are pretty too!
Me.
Dear Michelle and Erin,
Please pardon me, but I had to do that. For whatever reason, I am finding my inter dialog changing and I need to document that, so don't be surprised to see Dear Sams. How are you two? Blog! Blog! Blog! Even if it is just 5 mins during your busy day. I'm doing all I can to get the proper amount of sleep these days. That has been hard the last couple of weeks...either staying at the hospital, or just dreading the worst will be soon, but sleep hasn't been my friend. With that, instead of giving up and forgetting it all, I've decided that it is okay to allow time for myself first. By the time I get back home from dropping Caleb off at school, it is about 8:45. With a little pick up of the house, bible study, and exercise, I am busy until lunch. I normally would put the exercise off until the evening, and then it would never get done...I'm too tired by that time. I'm okay (for now) with the 8 loads of laundry still on the love seat waiting to be folded, and now ironed. In order for me to drop this weight, I am going to have to put God first, and me second...no matter what time I get out of bed. Looking back on today, I am so glad I decided to work out at 10:30 until hoping I would do it later. Now, I'm happy to say my knees are killing me and are waiting for some ice, but my heart is smiling! This...Peter/Paul thing stinks! :) So, I will take my happy little heart to rub down my frowning knees with heated muscle rub, and go to bed. Here is my last plea...I need you guys to post!!! I don't think I can properly explain how much I need it and how much I get out of reading from the two of you. Also, what do you guys think about arranging a certain type of workout schedule that all of us can do on the same days of the week? Now Erin, you can't go expect me to run miles, but I thought this would be a good way to break our training up. What do you think? Each of us can pick 3 exercises a piece, weight used, etc and encourage each of us to do them that day. It would definitely change routines up. I'm strictly thinking weight training stuff...maybe with some cardio. Don't know. Ya'll think about it. I'm going to bed. Love you!
Sam'
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